Thursday, March 30, 2006

drowsy me

spent about an hour email-ing xiuyi last night.
just have so much to share with her.
so funny when she commented that we're actually using "primitive" methods to communicate.LOL.
because FYI,we have not emailed since dinosaurs extinct.just kidding.probably Sec 1?i really have no idea cuz it's so long ago since we last emailed.
and she already replied!so,i'm supposed to like reply her asap but i just took my medicine..feeling too drowsy to type.
i was struggling very hard to read Doris's latest entry and felt "phew" when i finally finished.
my brain is really groggy at the moment i cant read properly.
*struggles*
as you can see,ok,you probably cannot,i skipped school today.
no la no~
today's is a so not hectic day you know.
ARGH.the stupid horror advert is showing on CH U again.i always look away when it's showing.not like it's scary but it's creepy.
ok,back to the topic.
went to see doctor again cuz my cough aint recovering and my mum's threatening to pull me out of the performance if i still dont get well soon.
boohoohoos.
what's the latest diagnose?i'm probably having pre-asthma coughs.
like wow.
so, from lymph gland infection it became trachea inflammation to pre-asthma coughs.
i wonder which one sounds more serious.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

i have an interesting class.very interesting...

my day at school today wasn't as bad compared to yesterday cuz my coughing has cut down and i got to hang out with my CT more and get to know them..
yesterday was horrid cuz the all-mighty-act-tough-carmen went for PE.we did:
-1 round around the school
-2 sets of 15 push-ups
-2 sets of 15 split jumps
-25 sit-ups
-60 step-ups
-30 leaps
-another 3rounds for girls & 4rounds for guys
i did all the way until the leaps and i just gave up.i'd either die of coughin or panting.
needed my mum to accompany me home cuz i felt unwell..slept for 2hours before i went bathing (so clean of me huh)

veron actually thought Jia Xin & I are in the same class!LOL.she says she always see us together...
ohwells.that's true.we're so fated we rendezvous everyday! -beams-
JiaXin says she thinks i really lost weight..she is heartbroken her chubby daughter is deflating..like,DUH.who wouldn't lose weight if they eat like me?basically only 2meals a day.breakfast & dinner.and the portion is much less than my original one.& when i'm in school,i either drink milo for the sake of filling my stomach & quenching my thirst or i buy some food and end up throwing almost the whole plate away after poking at it until my CT finish eating.
i shall resolve to buyin waffle tmr.no more wasting food!i feel very bad to waste food everyday..

so far i'm rather satisfied with my teachers..
Biology cum CT: Ms Ding
Chemistry tutor: Mr Kevin Low
Mathematics tutor: Ms Ng Wan Har
Economics tutor: Mrs Jane Chong
Proj.Work tutor: Ms Melissa Kwok
Gen.Paper tutor: -unknown-

i miss Mr Tong Yee!i want him for GP but that is entirely out of the question cuz he quit already.boohoohoos.but louis & i are planning to recruit pple to join his tuition at Bishan.bweeee.

and i'm proud to say my class is a sickly class.so far we have not reached Full Attendance on any day since last Monday.wahahahaha.
i was absent from school from weds-fri last week and god knows who was absent too.
i think Abel.according to Ms Ding,who fractured his leg from Rugby training..
yesterday the attendance was merely 22/26, with Jing Wen,Hui Ying & Tiara & i dunno who else missing.
today's attendance is 22/26 too,with Shaun goin home early and Jie Kai,Mei Hui and Tiara missing.
see?
and i've very interesting classmates...like Shaun..
who's dark tall but not beary handsome..
who's from Riverside Secondary..
and Chinese Dance(!!!)
and LIVES in JB(ohmytian)
den i've Piper Elaine,who's father is of Scottish origin..
who's great-grandfather is a policeman & died in a shoot-out..
den Hui Ying's grandfather or sth,who's a gangster, like-i-forgot-who's-grand parents too.and murdered some policeman before.den they were discussing if Elaine's great-grandfather was killed by Hui Ying's grandfather and blarh.
INTERESTING huh???

what to say?
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i'm finally done with my ultra long shower..
yawn.
i need a nap.
after falling sick,i practically need 10hours of everyday.
bwah.
my eyes are protesting already.
i'm nominated for econs rep..(again)
do i look very econs-ish??

Sunday, March 26, 2006

dreads

i'm so dreading school tmr!!!
firstly it's because i havent done my homework..

march holiday maths assignments and my bio MCQ.TONS of them.
for the entire march holiday i was so busy with co i barely had time & energy to do them...planned to do them during this past week of orientation but unfortunately,i was SICK!
PROCRASTINATOR!!!

secondly is i kind of dread meeting my CT actually..
everyone shall get ready to meet carmen-the-alien!bet they dun even remember my presence in the class and probably thought i'm a transfer student or something..

argh.SCREAMS.
the nanyang homepage says my CT's timetable has been updated!but i dun see any difference!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
wails.i DO see a difference now.
my fri is being prolonged!!!!
thur's PW is changed to after Fri's original last period!!!
WAILS.
i wanna cry.
i have a sad sad sad sad timetable.
ok.

THIRDLY,
i dread school because i dread my timetable.
fortunate thing is i think it's only for one week.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.
let it be one week only.
gimme a nice timetable for the rest of the year.
*i pray with all my heart & soul*

Friday, March 24, 2006

miserable me

blink-blink.
i just woke up from a one-hour nap..
woke up this mornin and decided not to go to school..
what for when i missed the 1st day of level camp & today's the 2nd day..
went back to sleep...woke up at 1030 and was very shocked cuz it's the first time in so many gazillion days that i woke up so late..
i dunno what's wrong with me this yr i've never ever slept past 10.
when i got off bed and onto my feet,i just felt the world spinnin and my legs were weak and i felt nauseous..stumbled to the toilet to wash up and i just barfed.
called my mum & i went back to sleep cuz i couldnt stand.if i remain standin i'll feel nauseous.but there's nothin for me to do sittin down or lying down.so,i might as well go back to sleep.

ugh.my mum only came back at 1330..before she's home,i woke up again at 1230..felt miserable:
missed one whole week of orientation.think everyone in my class probably mixed around very well already..i'll feel like an alien intruder when i return back to school..
marlene,louis,shoba etc are comin back NY to crash our disco night...i feel pathetic from head-to-toe.i wanna go meet them!!!
nobody's at home and i'm feverish and giddy and my throat hurts.
felt so miserable i just started crying..

when my mum's finally home,i ate a few mouthfuls of porridge,dressed up & went to see Dr.Hia..he was surprised that on the FOURTH day of my fever,my temperature's stil 38.3dgc..he said "poor girl,come i give you this medicine..i ensure ur temperature will go down in 2 days.if not,i'll have to send you for blood test."he gave me another 2days MC for today & tmr..which is equivalent to no co for me.i think ttk's gonna kill me. >.< and Dr.Hia said it's trachea inflammation.hrm..which doctor shld i believe?
i choose Dr.Hia.that stupid neighbourhood clinic doctor never get me cured.y shld i believe him!!!

my timetable is out...sighs.i feel like crying...

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

maybe,maybe not.

屋顶
半夜睡不着觉
把心情哼成歌
只好到屋顶找另一个梦境

睡梦中被敲醒
我还是不确定
怎曾有动人弦律在对面的屋顶

我悄悄关上门
带着希望上去
原来是我梦里常出现的那个人

那个人不就是我梦里那模糊的人
我们有同样的默契
用天线
用天线排成爱你的形状ho ho

在屋顶唱着你的歌
在屋顶和我爱的人
让星星点缀成最浪漫的夜晚
拥抱这时刻这一分一秒全都停止
爱开始纠结

在屋顶唱着你的歌
在屋顶和我爱的人
将泛黄的的夜献给最孤独的月
拥抱这时刻这一分一秒全都停止
爱开始纠结
梦有你而美

让我爱你是谁(是我)
让你爱我是谁(是你)
怎会有动人弦律环绕在我俩的身边
让我爱你是谁(是我)
让你爱我是谁(是你)
原来是这屋顶有美丽的邂逅
在屋顶唱着你的歌
在屋顶和我爱的人

无尽的爱
解开我最神秘的等待
星星坠落风在吹动
终於再将你拥入怀中
两颗心颤抖

相信我不变的真心
千年等待有我承诺
无论经过多少的寒冬
我绝不放手
(韩语:yi cei na ye so neh charl ko nu ni ka ma yo)
[现在紧抓住我的手闭上眼睛]
(wu li sa rang hae to nai yo seh ga ke ma yo)
[请你回想起过去我们恋爱的日子]
(wu li no mu sa rang hae so ha pa so neh yo)
[我们是因为太爱所以更使得我们痛苦]
soh lu sa rang ha ta ma yo mo teh so neh yo
[我们连"爱你"这一句话都无法讲]

每一夜被心痛穿越
思念永没有终点
早习惯了孤独相随
我微笑面对
相信我你选择等待
再多苦痛也不闪躲
只有你的温柔能解救
无边的冷漠

让爱成为你我心中那永远盛开的花
穿越时空绝不低头永不放弃的梦
金善喜(wu li no mu sa rang hae so ha pa so neh yo)
[我们是因为太爱所以更使得我们痛苦]
soh lu sa rang ha ta ma yo mo teh so neh yo
[我们连"爱你"这一句话都无法讲]
让爱成为你我心中那永远盛开的花
金善喜:(wu li soh jung heh to na so i chi nen ma la yo)
[我们千万不要忘记我们的约定]
合唱:唯有真爱追随你我穿越无尽时空
金善喜:soh lu sa rang ha ta ma yo mo teh so neh yo
[我们连"爱你"这一句话都无法讲]

成龙:爱是心中唯一不变美丽的神话


it unfolds from here... (:
maybe,maybe not...
i'm not sure...
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okay..so my mouth was and is feeling very bitter..
i binged on a rocher cuz all i could find in the house that is sweet is that..
which worsened my cough
-turns green from coughing-

second day

today's the second day of orientation...
and also the second day of my terrible fever...
the temperature's fluctuating from 38 to 39.5
when the medication wears off, my temperature just shoots up.
oh wells.last night,after blogging & taking my medication,i went to sleep immediately.
-lethargic-
brr.i'm feeling cold now.
just took my temperature..39.5..this mornin was 38.sth!!!
sighs.
anyway..after 13hrs & 15mins of sleep,i think ytd i was probably too sick to think straight..
after all,the same cycle repeated for OG26 and for CT0612...
so i think the cycle's just repeating all over again and eventually we'll all bond well and be a fun fun class!!! (:
-cross my fingers.prays with all my heart & soul.-

-cough coughs- time for medication...
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http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
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i'm coughing like a TB patient now..and also perspiring cuz i took my fever medicine..
-coughs coughs-
as you can see..i'm entirely crazy about 仙劍奇俠傳...
hahah.finished the show..it's a very sad but nice show...so i used the song from the show (:

40.19 dgc

Tuesday, March 21, 2006


sick sick sick sick sick
ytd was orientation 2's first day.and before i woke up,i felt cold all over and was shivering in the aircon.
but it's the first day of orientation and first day i am going to get to know my CT..i'm going to stick to for the rest of my 2yrs!i felt groggy but overall still in an OK state.
so i shuffled to school after taking panadols.(felt weak + blisters)
felt normal when i reached school and after watchin the evolved Projact-X skit,we proceeded to the MPR for mass-dancing.phew.after sweating it out,i felt energetic and revived!
but after that,when we went for lunch,i think the medication started to wear off and i started feeling cold all over again and lost my apetite.but nevertheless,i continued the rest of the orientation--games

the first game was Fortress Game.we are to be split into 2groups and run to the opponent's "Fortress",use the water gun to shoot down the opponent's drink cans.but in the process,if we're tapped by the opponent,we're supposed to "freeze" until our teammates come & rescue us.aha.i was the first to reach the opponent's fortress.being small and short and "unnoticeable".eventually,our team won!(:

next was the Logic Gates game.where we have to sit facing the opponent team,sole touchin sole.first pair to run across everyone's legs and then behind & back to their original sitting position.the first team to complete wins.we were 2nd.but ohwells.the cheerin part was fun & seeing everyone put in all their efforts to run fast was really spirit-lifting.

den it's the scissors-paper-stone game where the aim is to get to the opponent's end.in order to do so,we have to sit on the chair at each end and glide across without liftin our butts off the chairs.den when the 2people meet,they'll play scissors paper stone and the winner gets to continue the painful journey until he reaches the last chair,which is the opponent's end.
lastly,it's some water game.we are to take turns to fill up a bucket with water,by transferring the water from one bucket to the other,using cups.and we have to go past a hopscotch in the middle.when it's filled,we'll get plastic bags to make water bombs and aim it at a target board.we'll accumulate points accordin to where the water bomb lands.if the waterbomb breaks,we get the points but no extra water bombs.if it doesn't,we can reuse it.we score 3160 i think.

overall the day wasn't bad besides the facts that:
-i had fever
-my CT is one where most pple stayed on and most girls gimme the feeling that "i-can-be-nice-to-you-but-i-want-to-stick-to-my-old-friends"
take for instance,durin the fortress game,adeline & cheryl (originally from 0631) den me & joanna(new to the class & 2nd intaker) were sittin side by side.den we were split into 2 groups.adeline1,cheryl2,me1,joanna2.den adeline said to joanna "hey,do u mind swopping with cheryl so we can be together & u can be with carmen?" (joanna's my pri sch schoolmate btw)
i was thinkin,"what the hell,cant u just make friends and mix around?"
den NONE of my CT-mates showed me any concern,even if it's some superficial "are u feeling alright?" except joanna & some guys.ROARS.
during lunch,our class was split into 3tables:the girls.the newbies.the guys.
even the OGLs,who were supposed to bond the class together and act as a bridge between the "original" people & the "new" people,werent doing their jobs.they were just sitting their,playing Ji-Go-Pak with the "original"girls.
and sad to say,the only OGL that talked to me is someone who's not from this class originally too.den the 2new cedar girls hung out amongst themselves, so were the AMK-TPJC newbies.i was feeling really tired & cold & disheartened by the scene i just sad their stoning.. & smsed jiaxin how much i missed CT0612.
felt so miserable.
den when we were playin the last game,some new intakes were moanin & sayin they wanna go home & they dont wanna play the game & was saying things like they'll just hide behind and watch.
i was SO irritated.
i was thinkin "HELL-O?can u see how sick i am?and i'm participating.what's so wrong with you this not-so-fit-but-in-pink-of-health-person?"
-GROWLS-

during debriefing in the I-Space,i felt like dying.it was so cold i was shivering.den my entire face was RED.
the debrief took forever and we were dismissed 15mins later than scheduled time.i staggered home after that.it felt like forever too when i was staggering home.and i was walkin in front of adeline & gang..they didn't even say a simple "Bye" to me.what heartless freaks.
through the entire day,jia xin was the only one from 0612 who knew about my condition.
and she showered me with care & concern.my nice mummy -beams-
she makes me smile from within.
she's always there for me.
my best friend version NY 2.0. LOL.
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i almost thought i couldn't make it home.took me temperature. -gasps-
it's 40.19 dgc!!!
i nearly fainted when i saw the reading.felt like chopping my head off cuz it was BURNING.
normal tap water felt like ice to me.
u can imagine how bad it was.
i was weak-kneed & staggered to the clinic with my mum accompanying me to the clinic.
-wince- it's not open.
went back home,took panadols and slept for 2hours..till about 6plus 7.
den had some soup for dinner & went down to visit the doctor.
he said i've some lymph gland infection.which explains for the dry-cough &amp; itchy-throat & fairly high temperature for neck & above.but neck & below was only rather warm.
was given 2days MC and if i dont recover by thurs,i'd probably have to be hospitalised.
>.<

Monday, March 20, 2006

Back For Good

i'm back!!!--for good (:
sighs.using blogger again.*sobs*i miss my diary-x! >.<
am currently at junxiang's house now...his house is situated at some Ulu-Ulu place on earth..took us very long to come although he said we're walkin the short cut..but the best thing is there was a playground with swing!(: teehee.
he's house is..3-storeys high.my legs going jelly from all the climbing up and down cuz his bedroom is all the way at the top.
he's in the toilet next to the comp now..SHITTING.ugh.i need to stop breathin.HELP.it stinks.
-chokes-
well,i'm here because i want to take my camera back.irritating him stole my camera the other day and he forgot to return me..and i'm here to take it back. -growls-
if it weren't for orientation tmr,i wouldn't come and get the camera.i'll make him deliver it all the way to my doorsteps!!!now my legs are aching from all the running & climbing & pillow-fighting.
ok.the diffusion is getting stronger.i shall find refuge in somewhere else...
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i am finally home. *tired*
and guess what?i FORGOT to take back the camera AGAIN.
i so feel like killing myself.
-frustration-
junxiang stole my bag to hide it somewhere in his big mansion while i was browsing through the photos he took of his SJ-competition..den i went to chase after him..den we had this big pillow/cushion fight and guess what?my camera's buried deep under all the cushions.
moans
groans
whines