I CANT THINK OF A TITLE.

just had a MSN video call from kynan.
AHHH.
my nephew is getting cuter by the SECOND.
and sad to say, more annoying by the MINUTE though ):
still, cute wins annoyance by 59 seconds.
but i'm still upset he is moving step by step into the circle, where melissa & dickson call the "monster-age"?

anyway, we're already starting to plan for his FIRST BIRTHDAY!!
cant wait cant wait.
i wanna bake him cute mini cupcakes!
05012009.

dip. plus yesterday was thought provoking.
what with the three kinds of friendships being mentioned:
friendships based on utility, friendships based on pleasure, and friendships based on virtue.
-Aristotle; Nicomachean Ethics-

dip. plus today, was traumatizing.

miss tan was demonstrating family therapy today with her very own family genogram,
illustrating her family culture passed down from her grandparents.
so many atimes, i wanted to cry.
because i saw many similarities. (with yan ling's family yes, but more importantly, with ms tan's family too. i was near the verge of tears not because i was sad. ok, maybe partially. but more importantly, i was happy that even with a dysfunctional family, i could, most probably, turn out fine like ms tan did. countless of times, i honestly thought i was losing my sanity and i am going to turn out a wreck when i grow up. now, i just wanna cry with relief.)

bouts of bad mood hit me throughout the day.
with alex and dickson being their usual irritating and annoying selves,
but occassionally toe-ing the lie and making it a little taunt, made me lost it for awhile.
with ms big-boobs-know-it-all trying to be a spoiler, i honestly couldn't be more bothered to give her anything more than a half-hearted smile and a patronizing "oh".
behind her back i rolled my eyes and stuck out my tongue at her.
ONE MORE THING about the books i swear i'm going to puncture your boobs and eyeballs and sew your mouth, you annoying ms big-boobs-know-it-all-and-hypocrite.
and with sp, being totally insensitive, as usual.
anooyance and irritants everywhere.

in comparison, the annoyance kynan brings seems so blissful.

AND OMG I DONT KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME I PRONOUNCED HYPOCRITE TODAY AS "HAI-PO-CRIT" instead of "HIPPO-CRIT" -.-
and yesterday, while walkin to FEB tutorial, i accidentally whacked the back of my knee with my vaio and i stumbled.
like ?!?! super spasticated can, what's wrong with me!

random thing Alex drew on his notes.
hmmm, i think it was last tues' FEB lecture.
scary huh. especially when it's blurred.


Yan Ling and Shi Ping doing pole-dance around Mr.Ng as forfeit during monday's dip. plus. (monday before deepavali.)

playing the number game.


happy people after they completed the game my group facilitated.

Mel's Birthday Cake - strawberry cheesecake from swissbake

Mr. and Mrs. Clarke!
hahaha.

Melissa, super happy.

making wish...

looks yummy?

really super duper extremely supremely happy looking baby. ((:

the happiness on her face is just contagious lah (though a bit spasticated.)

this is what i call, "DIG IN".

Fisherman's Wharf for dinner on Friday.

The Clinic thereafter for drinks.

Sex on the Drip

mmm, i loved it.

sitting on the wheelchair. i seriously wanted to be wheelchair-bound that night because my maryjanes were killing me. and the hormones imbalance werent helping.

melly baby drew them all. i drew eeyoreee!

haha.

how much did we fare? ((:

P.S. i just lost my bottle today ):

no, my mum lost it. she left it somewhere after drinking..

argh. dang. was growing fond of it.

yes yes,

that's us.

that's our title.

shayenne, melissa, carmen.

gold diggers forever. tsk tsk.

Tropic Thunder with Dickson and Melissa @ Vivo on Wednesday.

1hour lecture cancelled! whoots. no school no school! ((:

thanks dickson for the treat although you dont read my blog.

wow. cool.

i'd love to have it. haha.
and chocopoly from Party City @ Holland V!

heartzxzx!

someday, someday.

we'll buy it melly.

TAMAGOTCHI!
someday someday,
we'll magnet someone to buy it for us kaes baby.

melly told me a story, like a SUPER DUPER lame story, on why doraemon & hello kitty should be best friends forver.
and told me to get the doraemon watch so she could get the hello kitty one.

of course, NOT.
i wont get the doraemon one. NO WAY.

random.

after duty at East Coast Park on 1Nov.
on 196 on the way to City Hall (suntec)


people in The Clean & Green Race doing the crossword puzzle at mel & my station ((:
it's the FIRST GROUP we've encountered, and the ONE AND ONLY GROUP that completed the crossword puzzle.
bitch alert in front of me! haha.

darryl & clinton ((:

camwhoring cuz too tired but dont wanna sleep but too bored if i dont nap on the bus.

seahorse chop! loveee.

CRAZEEELEEE

filled with people.

quote clinton, "after that we went to marina barrage where the queue for the shuttle bus is longer than 100 elephant trunks connected together. bloody hell man seriously."

and we were so oxygen deprived on the bus.

the East Coast Park Team!
"East Coast!!!"

"EAST COAST PARK ROCKS!!"

on the way to City Hall.
Melissa, Jocelyn, Natalie & Me.
we WALKED, TREKKED, all the way out from Marina Barrage to Marina Bay MRT!
omg i swear i never walked for so long ever since jungle trekking at Batam.
my legs were about to give way my ankles were screaming, my soles were protesting.
i think we walked for about 1.5hours to reach Marina Bay mrt.

subway for dinner, loveee!
honey oat. chicken teriyaki. extra cheese. toasted. lettuce only. honey mustard and mayo. chocolate chip.
ALL TIME FAVOURITE.


sometimes,
i wish my brain would stop processing.
there's just too many things i wish life were simpler.
sometimes,
i wish my brain would process things faster.
more analytical, less emotional.

for my baby <3 and my candygirl

I am the wind.

On land, no blade of grass moves without me.
At sea, every rising wave is touched by me.
Wherever you are, I am high enough to see you.
And strong enough to reach out to you;
and place strength in your hand.
You may not always see me.
But you will always feel me.

For I am here, for a higher purpose.

---

All through a lifetime, I'll be loving you.
And then,
on the day after FOREVER,
I'll just begin again.
All through a lifetime, I'll be loving you.
And then,
on the day after FOREVER,
I'll just begin again.
All through a lifetime, I'll be loving you.
And then... ... ... ...

(and then and then and then and then and then!)
lol internal joke ah joke.

cuz afterall, you're my wonderwall <3
i need my wonderwall now.
keep up with the façade, girl.
keep it up, keep it up.
but i'm so tired, she says.
i just want to break down and cry.

but i'm supergirl.
hold on, hold on.
but dont hold too tight.
hold on, hold on.
until somebody is here to save you,
hold on, hold on.

love's beautiful, so beautiful.

Do not stand at my grave and weep

I am not there
I do not sleep

I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints on snow

I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle Autumn rain

When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds

In circled flight
I am the soft stars that shine at night

Do not stand at my grave and cry

I am not there
I did not die

---

Goodbye, No use leading with our chins,
This is where our story ends,
Never lovers, ever friends.

Goodbye, Let our hearts call it a day,
But before you walk away,
I sincerely want to say:

I wish you bluebirds in the Spring,
To give your heart a song to sing;
And then a kiss, but more than this I wish you love.

And in July, a lemonade,
To cool you in some leafy glade;
I wish you health and more than wealth, I wish you love.
My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be,
So with my best, my very best, I set you free.

I wish you shelter from the storm,
A cozy fire to keep you warm;
But most of all, when snowflakes fall,
I wish you love.

I wish you bluebirds in the Spring,
To give your heart a song to sing;
And then a kiss, but more than this I wish you love.

And in July, a lemonade,
To cool you in some leafy glade;
I wish you health and more than wealth, I wish you love.
My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be,
So with my best, my very best, I set you free.

I wish you shelter from the storm,
A cozy fire to keep you warm;
But most of all, when snowflakes fall,
I wish you love.

like a bitch.

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you over think
Always speak
Crypticly

I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you) You don't really want to stay, no
(but you) But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be
Just like twins
So in sync
The same energy
Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring

I should know that
You're not gonna change

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

---

so,
so what?
i wanna start a fight.

prings of mishandlers; stuck.

monday
was a super tiring day.
three tutorials in a row.
then 2 lectures.
then SMART meeting.
and then conduct Dip. Plus activities for the class.
baby was in melaka. boohoo ):

tuesday
tutorial was horrible.
FM tutorial = don't know what teacher is talking about.
PSCM tutorial = private chit chat session and slacking session
why are the modules in this Semester so boring?
after lessons, bitchy session with baby! ((:
hahaha. as usual, there was fun love laughter joy.

"HAHAHAHAHA! OMG damn spastic. Why you so stupid, I going to pee in my pants already!"

"But their family very big what. Maybe got some government financial assistance?"

"Family big so what, 'Ok la ok la, your family so big, ok la we (govt) give you a bungalow to live in."

-.-

wednesday
baby is suay.
her alarm clock didn't ring so she missed CB lecture. (buttt, she's not that suay cuz today's attendance is sign attendance list so i signed for her. haha)
and den while textin me in the morning, her hot pink motorola just died on her without any indications.
suay right? not.
(she's not that suay afterall, her motorola auto-revived -.-)

i lost my phone at Vivo. after U600 died, my mum's ex U700 was lost.
prior to this i actually "lost" (dropped) my phone twice already (U600).
once i dropped it in Topshop and once i dropped it in River Island.
both times i already stepped out of the store already far away elsewhere, but both times i managed to find it back at the cashier counter.
this time i dropped it in Forever21. i haven't even left the store, havent even paid for the merchandise i'm intendin to buy and i cant find the phone back already!

what happened:
after tryin clothes, walkin around at the accessories section.
wah. nice zebra prints stuff, take picture with phone and show baby tmr..
take picture, take picture, take picture.
wah. nice belt. puts stuffs down, try.
wah. nice scarf/shawl. walks over, take scarf/shawl, walk to mirror, put stuffs down, try, walk back, puts down scarf/shawl, linger around.
walks over to cashier.
SHIT. where's my phone?
and i scanned the whole area i've visited after taking the picture phone is nowhere to be found.
ask cashier, also dont have.

?!?! ridiculously suay.

left vivo at 1230.. went tpy, ate, and bought super lots of stuffs from NTUC & Phoon Huat.
omg i spent a B.O.M.B.
i had to cab home cuz i seriously have no strength to lug everything back to the interchange and take bus home.
my muscles are aching.
reached home around 3+

told my mum i lost my phone and as usual, the laments just came raining down on me like the pouring rain outside the window.
thereafter i tried to do some stuffs and also, AS USUAL, the naggings just wouldnt stop flying at me, like the arrows of the ancient war-men during war times. (THINK RED CLIFF)
they keep trying to penetrate me but i think i've already toughened up my armour so strong that my mum's arrows just cant pierce through already.

but it is still upsetting, though not as upsetting as the past, that no matter what i do, you just wont give me your support, would you?
you werent proud of me when i represented school for captain's ball competition.
you werent proud of me when i won inter-class captaion's ball competition.
you werent even proud of me when i won the NATIONAL champion in translation back in CCPS.
you werent proud of me when i was chosen to represent DHS for national young leadership camp.
you werent proud of me when i went for CO performance; either you leave halfway claiming you had a headache, or you dont come at all claiming that it's a bore.
you never complimented me at all, almost never, all my life.
you never supported me in anything that i do, always giving me the wet blanket, always setting restrictions, always saying that it's not enough.
when i made mistakes, you harp about it, over and over again.
when i did things that you dont like, you just go on and on and on that i'm rebellious.

this is sick luh.


when can u learn to be supportive like daddy?
to always be there for me?
supportive, caring, attentive, listens to what i want to say, what i feel before jumping to conclusions, shares his life with me and wants to listen all about my life as well?
or simply, to love me just for who i am.


you never were.
you never will be.

inside the mind, outside the world

an endless road without a stop sign.
i'm scared, i'm scared.
would you be there to walk with me?
would you?

you seemed so psyched when u speak of fran,
but why is it you aren't happy when it's me?
i often have these doubts.
i often have these fears.
i cling on with my fingernails,
too scared of losing you.

i'm hanging on a thread, i'm hanging on a thread.
are you or are you not with me?
make these butterflies go away.
go away...
go away...




i missed you.

root word

wow wow wow!
first week of school ended in a blur, just like that! *snaps finger*

towned with the bitchesss on monday.
super craziness and bitchy and gossipy.
great shopping (:

queenstown to search for my dickies with baby.
nearly wanted to give up already, but LUCKY i remembered there's this quirky shop there that might sell dickies and TADA!
it was there.
wah cloud nine sia. happy until dunno like what bought it almost immediately.
bugis for Food For Thought with baby thereafter.
teared like mad dno what stupid odourless substance they were cooking, stung my eye like crazy.

wednesday was happiest day of the week.
we went to the zoo, zoo, zoo!
dickson, melly baby and i.
yes i agree it was fun but i beg to differ a little.
it would be more fun if it didn't rain AND if they had no snakes.
the snakes were giving me so much creeps, i'm ONE STEP away from phobiaaa.

thursday was rendezvous day with Clinton.
we nearly had sex in the SB club house.
yeah right ah Darryl, very funny.
towned with my mum after school. yay shopping!

today!
i OVERSLEPT whoots.
haha lesson starts at 9 and i woke up at 8.
too tired already sleep debt accumulate and my brain and body chose to go on a strike today.
tsk tsk.
wewo with crazy bitch baby. contemplated for super long if we wanna go back for Blaw tutorial and we did. (miracle sia. the temptation was so strong..)

wahhh.
yeah so, my first week just went past in a blur like that! *snaps finger again*

i shall let the pictures do the talking!

aites till next time!

alex - "BFF for life, yo!"

bryan - "i worked for 8 days."

jun liang - "bensss & jerry"

dickson - "i hope my wife will die, then i can inherit all her assets."

lecturer - "oh that depends if she's leaving anything for you in her will."

(yay i so love the lecturer. HA! eeevil dick.)

shayenne the oily lips

clinton and darryl...

and melly baby, needless to say,

countless of quotes - bitchy ones, sweet ones, hilarious ones.

LOL!

"and then... ... ... ...?"

school's a chore and school's a bore.

but, i'm thankful for the people i have (:

t1w1d1

baby was earlier than me!
ai xin mian bao.
snorts sniggers and laughters.
gossip sessions and ketchup sessions.
town with bitch and baby.
st leaven and brownie.
adidas adidas adidas!
dorothy perkins!
fourskin and forever21 (:
dickies white doodle please!
new MLT12, cancer lecturer, bensss&jerry.
stop embarassing yourself.
plans for tues, eggcitement nearly engulfed me - choked on eclipse.
new modules new teachers.
saikang warrior for the Fourtress.

we're going to the zoo, zoo, zoo!
how about you, you, you?
you can come too, too, too!
we're going to the zoo, zoo, zoo!


please dearly holy almighty beloved God, let there be sunshine on Wed, but! not TOO hot a weather.
Rain, rain, go away,
come again another day.
all the world is waiting for the sun ((:

---

i'm nine and you're seven.
i'm seven and you're nine.
fates intertwined?
paths divided?

school blues, school's boo.

met Lihui before work for some snack shopping.
lunched at 1240pm and BK again!
omg. i'm seriously going to balloon (or already am a balloon).
okay Virus is getting more and more nonsensical each day, i seriously can't believe this is the Virus i knew like a year ago.

and Rara is so cute cannn.
he said "Dior Homme" as "Dior Home-y"
omg it's so cute. Homme.
i mean normally people who cant pronounce would probably say "Hommm" or something, but "Home-y"?

aites.
i'm facing a wardrobe crisis here.
put on so much weight i've no idea what to wear tmr.
yikes.
schools's reopening and it sucks.

school blues,
school's boo.

shitass

ARGH.
this sucks.
work was shitass today.
(everytime i experience a shitass work day, i think of it as the most shitass one i've ever had.) but i think this time it's really the most shitass one i've ever had, like seriously. i swear on my m&ms.

lunch with rara, lihui & virus at BK (omg AGAIN. it's what i had last saturday with yaya -.-)
and after that raphael joined us and we went hotspot to chill & talk.
i've never felt this stressed in my entire 1 year with Sony.
true, roadshows were stressful too. but u get over it super quickly.
but this, oh boy. it's like RETRENCHMENT.
on us, the part-timers.
dont really think i should say too much here, lest Sony sues me LOL.
oh boy oh boy.
i haven't felt the lehman brother tremors since it happened but yes, now i feel the quake mann.


and it doesn't help when my shop's Vaio stocks aren't MOVING at all, while the others' are.
and it also doesn't help when the freaking other 2 sales people keep bugging me ALL DAY LONG to ask yaya out, like, WTH. if you have the balls you go ask her out yourself can.
you know how to get her friendster, you know the drill.
and it doesn't help to have a shop manager that's almost EQ retarded, saying the most ridiculous things to me.
like come on, i take my pay from Sony so i take all the crap they throw at me. (including the stress.)
please consider where you stand before you tell me to stop surfing the net, stop sms-ing, stop talking to the others.
i dont see any problem as long as i serve the customers and perform my responsibilities and duties.
and i mean, this shop is newly opened. not even a month old (only 3 weeks). the crowd flow is like.. ok i serve less than 10 customers a day (excluding those who aren't looking at Vaio but simply asked me questions cuz i'm at the shop entrance), so what am i to do? stand there and stone for 8hrs?
and who are you to tell me to go outside to drag customers in?
where do you think we're working at, Geylang?
i'm sorry my responsibilities stop at serving customers who are interested in (buying) Vaios, i'm not a hostess and i'm not paid to behave like one.

moron!

AND,
it doesn't help when no one noticed i dyed my hair PLUS had a haircut. (yes, i dyed my hair last night and cut my hair (2 inches!!) this morning. so much for "new semester, new hairdo" nobody even noticed -.-)
it also doesn't help that school is reopening in less than 2days' time, with the crappiest timetable i've ever seen.

bad bad day!
baby i need some lifting up!

muack, baby, muack

rendezvous with baby today.
wah lao. somebody ah, fell asleep and made me wait damn long lor.
coffee club and i spent the longest time in my entire life in Watson's.
i think prolly 1h15mins!?!?
baby couldn't decide on the hair colour she wants.
and i bought myself a hair dye too, whoots. spontaneously. (mama mia lol!)
so eggcited.
new look for new semester, aiseh aiseh.

"this girl very familiar, i've seen her before."

"really?"

"yeah, on the box."


i stole recipes from a cookbook!
bought myself a cupcake recipe book OMG i'm so gonna bake for my brother's birthday. (16th oct)
i seriously hope i do.
BUT!!!
i'll need to spend super-a-bomb on the ingredients and tools.




visit: http://www.cakeadoodledo.co.uk/
like, ohhhhhmygoodnessgracious "hideously" sinful temptations.

pretty dresses:

this is like selling at R.I now for $80!
omg i seriously like it but it is a tad too long for me (reaches my knee caps, so it looks a tad weird) but i seriously love it so much how how how omg.
perfect size somemore. last piece.
i so wanna die.

i love love love love LURVE this too why asos stuff so expensive.
i wanna be the girl who won 7million pounds from the euro toto lahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

so in lurve with this bag cannnn.
OMG if i cant find it in Queestown Shopping Centre, i dno where else i can find it.
if i cant find it in SG, i'll have to buy it online and have it shipped to Joel, who's currently in Boston, and have him ship to SG for me.
i dont believe i cant find it in SG cuz i saw somebody carrying it. roar. but where lah!

saturday fever:
after work.

chalet's high on martell:
your highness is super tak-glam here.
well, i was seriously high on alcohol already, can't blame me.

---

muack, baby, muack.

LOL.