because of... you.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you 
I find it hard to trust 
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you



this song really hit me right in the face after my talk with tiffany.
sighs.
life sucks.
working life is really not a bed of roses (although i NEVER said it was),
but then it's getting suckier each day now.
what with all the backstabbing and badmouthing and a double-faced bitch and all
of us being all hypocritical & PR-ish.
ARGH. i cant wait for the 9 days to pass.
today's 20th. officially there's 11 more days till my last day.
but then, there's still 2 off days... (:
yeap. i've just printed "THE LETTER" out. tendering it tomorrow!
goodbye hypocrites & double-faced people.
although that's the minority, but i've had enough of it.
some ways it's been more enjoyable than NYJC, but in some ways,
it's so much far more complicated and political and whatsoever.
it's weird how everything that started so happily all ended up so differently,
unhappily & ugly.

i'm really looking forward to poly life. hope it rocks mann.