new vocab for everyone: ubiquity

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
You tell me your blue skies fade to grey
You tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeeeah)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

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yeah. i really really had a bad saturday.
one that made me feel really lousy, noob, failure,
loser, incompetent.
sunday was no better.
i had kosong sales on both days.
it's not the commission that matters.
it's the fact that i've failed someone.

you know the feeling when people has hopes and
expectations from you, and you fail them, the feeling
is just horrible.
you feel so incompetent.
sometimes, even useless.
i don't like to feel like i've failed my superiors.
especially when they've always had good impression of me.
i'm supposed to be there to help Alan with his sales.
but yet he was the one that clinched a total of 6
deals in 2days.
and me? nada.
i know experience counts and in the IT market,
gender discrimination exists in ubiquity.
and i know that my experience is not there, and
neither am i an IT savvy person plus i'm FEMALE.
so of course i definitely cannot provide the "help"
Alan wanted..
BUT!
i still don't like the feeling of being so helpless.

it's been a torture there..
super boring.
super unhappy.
but Alan made my day cuz at 730 he told me i can go
off at 8 instead of 830! (much as i'd like to stay
and help, the place was so boring i could fall
asleep STANDING)
OMG. so super elated i could leave early.
plus he told me that he would submit 3-4 lappys for
me for commission!
i was utterly SHOCKED.
and all i could do is a sheepish "thanks" cuz i don't
really deserve it yet i can't refuse the extra bit of
income, can i?

and you can totally imagine me, doing the "typical
yaya-thang"(in private of course):
go all gaga and idiotic and cock my head to one side
with both palms on my cheeks and den "alan dui wo zhen hao~~~"
*SIGH*
ok, i must add to my TO-DO list: purge all remnants
of yaya's poison out of me.

today at Bukit Timah Courts was Oookay.
got to see the old crowd again.
it's great to see the familiar faces again and everyone
greeting you, "eh! you're back!"
got to know another fellow Sony full-timer, Jing Sheng,
(sounds like "今生") who's quite cool..
LOL.

alright, that's for now.
Au Revoir!