have faith.

i don't understand.
why can't people have faith in people?
i mean, i've ALWAYS had faith in people.
when people said they'll come back. be it when i was working at bossini or comex, i always trusted that they'll come back. and to tell you the truth, most of the time, people DO come back!
i don't understand why the "big people" (da ren) always says don't believe their words.
like bernard from bossini, uncle teh from sony and my own mother.
but i really feel that you know, when you have faith, sometimes, it just happens.
they come back!

why can't people just have more faith in themselves and others?
i always tell myself, "i can do it, i can do it, i can do it" when i'm really on the verge of desperado.
and i always tell myself, "if you believe they're coming back, they will come back. if you don't, they won't."
and trust me, it hasn't failed me too many times yet. those that failed, you can tell they really are just trying to skimp you.

so why can't they just give me a break?
just give people more faith! why do they believe that there are plenty of big bad wolves, baddies, evil-hooked-and-crooked-nose witches, and what-say-you out there that's trying to cheat anyone and everyone.
true. i don't deny there ARE baddies out there.
but i just don't like people stereotyping and saying, "the world out there is bad. is evil. is cruel." i know to a certain extent, it's true. i don't deny. but why must you have that perception? why not go "the world out there is full of hope and opportunities." i mean, it's just taking a step back and viewing things from another angle and everything would be so much better!

whatever.
i mean, why not take the nicer view of the world? why make your life so miserable?
and i'm even more sick that my parents are just yakking away all day that i must becareful when i go to work, when am i getting my comex pay, they would cheat me of all my money.
come on la.
am i that gullible?
so sick of it. especially my mum tagging along all the way to Juice Asia. that's over concerned.
i feel over-protected.

i'm not that dumb la. i'm born street smart. and i'm like so observant. *tut*
if i were that dumb i wouldn't have like, told everyone we should get our pay together from JMC (the HR agency in charge of "dispatching" us to courts for comex) should they take too much commission out of our pay, then we can protest together.
see? i'm so smart.
stop treating me like a baby!!!



speaking of which, Baby Bradley Kynan came!(haha.gor gor changed his mind and thought kynan is a nicer name. I LIKE!) as in, he was inside Serene jie's tummy and Serene Jie & my Gor came together to get the bird's nest my mum stewed.brewed.whatever. ya.
and Serene jie was wearing sucha cute pink T-shirt!!! it says: "There is a rockstar in there" and a arrow was pointin to her tummy. so cute!
she said she bought another one that says : "I'm not fat, I'm eating for two!"
i still prefer the rockstar one. Kynan Cheong, future rockstar. (i like!)
and i finally got to feel Baby Kynan! but i think he was sleeping. ):
21weeks old. oooooh (:

i'm starting to feel mad at alan and patrick. they totally whitewashed me.
they told us they need people for some Sony ROADSHOWS.
and by roadshow, you'd thought they'd need alot of people. but NO. shandy babe called me when i messaged her if she has got any job from Sony. she told me the whole freaking story that it turned out that by ROADSHOW, they only needed 2 part timers MAX.
so infuriating. and then if they call us to go work at Sony Galleries (like what patrick said, the pay is different. no commission.)
utterly pissified. lucky i still go another job ah! piangz.
i still contemplated quitting for sony mann. thank god i didn't.
i wonder when they'd call for like, ANY job at all.
but then again, i have faith they would call. hahaha.

anyway, i've a meeting tomorrow with Shan, with some people from the Economic Development Board.
gosh. the thought of it is making me have butterflies. so scared. and i don't know if i'm gonna be dressed formal enough or not for this!