sectumsempra!

nope.
THAT, is not french. haha. i highly doubt it is, although now that i know, as JK Rowling studied French, many of the names and incantations actually derived from French.

Joanne Kathleen Rowling!

I HEART YOU! to the moon and back gazillion times! (for that fateful day your ingenious brain concocted Harry Potter on your train to King's Cross.)

but now, you've landed me in such a dreadful dilemma.
for i have finished the Half-Blood Prince, 2-and-a-half-hours ago.
and i have painstakingly tried to revise for PACC, which, i have to say, the effort was fruitless.
hahaha.
why? WHY??

BECAUSE I AM SO SUPER TEMPTED TO READ HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS!

but no!
[EDITED!] carmenie wongie yeeie wenie (weird, long and mouthful nick name natalie lingie munie waiie gave. and her name apparently sounds less weird than mine.) must have some self-restrain!
and self-discipline!
boohoohoo. and it is killing me and tearing me apart!
and YET!
i am also faced with a torn and sick feeling because deep down, i know that after i have finished this last book, there will be no more harry potter to look forward to!!
no more craning of necks and desperately waiting for the next publication of the Harry Potter series.
this dreadful thought is killing me, as it has killed so many readers when it was revealed that Dumbledore was killed mercilessly in book6. (but i heard Dumby-dorrr is not dead in book7! see what i mean? oh my gosh. the suspense is killing me like the Cruciatus curse.)

roarrr.

carmeny is so badly poisoned and infused by magic.
sigh!
i shall resume the journey i have embarked so many years ago soon!
as soon as i'm done with bloody PACC.

"girl, come and see. which cloth is more suitable for making of the baby's pillows?"said daddy, indicating to a few pieces of cloths he retrieved from the factory.

curious, i peeked, bewildered, i asked, "how come they are all blue? we dont even know if it's baby bianca or baby bradley!" (went to gor's house the other day, and he told me he MIGHT be intending to name the baby Bianca if it's girl or Bradley if it's a boy. i suggested Chantalle. but he rejected. BOOHOO.)

"what Banca or Barley?"

i couldn't really be bothered to answer.

"it's boy boy what."

"HUH! WHAT! IT'S BOY?!"

"ya.. it's boy what."

and i assume they found out a few nights ago when they went to deliver bird's nest to jie jie. because... because! i went to their house just the other night! before ITAB.. i think it was last sunday! and gor gor showed me the ultra scan but didn't tell me the gender of the baby. and there i was, telling him i hope that it would be a baby girl! and he said if it's really a baby girl then jie jie would be really happy.
and i secretly thought, OF COURSE! WHO WOULDN'T!

and then. devastation struck. because i had been so falsely lead that it would be a baby girl for sure! because i had i dream that it was going to be a baby girl! and mummy said that jie jie looked prettier, so it MIGHT be a baby girl.
and just yesterday, i saw 2 VERY pretty little dresses from Topshop when i was at Vivo with monk, after RushHour3. and i swore i would buy that for baby Bianca once the gender is confirmed.

BOOHOO.

and here i am. hope thrashed.

and you know you can't blame me for being biased because ALL I SAW WERE PRETTY LITTLE TINY CLOTHINGS FOR BABY GIRLS AND NONE FOR BABY BOYS!
plus! you can't deny that apparels for baby girls are much more appealing than those for baby boys. and even I would have the urge to buy them if jie jie weren't pregnant.

okay okay, baby bradley, it's not that i dont love you! it's just that i would much prefer you to be baby bianca. but now that it's impossible...
(although i secretly hope that there's been a mistake and the baby is REALLY actually a girl instead, and it was just the baby's finger actually, haha! like what monk suggested.)
AUNTY CARMEN STILL LOVES YOU AS MUCH OKAY!!!
my love for you will never waiver be it you're bradley or bianca!
(now i'll have to start thinking of nice Chinese names for boys. sigh. and i was actually intending to suggests names for baby Bianca like 张恩庭，or 张庭萱 etc. so beautiful!)

okay. enough of lamenting on the gender of the baby.
i think i'm kinda obsessed.
i will be... i think, preparing a baby shower gift soon.
maybe even baby shower GIFTS.

now, come come carmeny, come read me... beckoned the HPATDH.
"ARGH! NOT AGAIN!" cried Carmen, with a note of fury, and she hastily chucked the book somewhere in her room that would be unnoticed.
But deep down, she know, as though invisible strings are tugging at her, luring her nearer and nearer to the book...
she reached for it, with her arms outstretched, fingers wriggling at the book, desperate for it.
and the next thing she knew...