I CANT THINK OF A TITLE.

just had a MSN video call from kynan.
AHHH.
my nephew is getting cuter by the SECOND.
and sad to say, more annoying by the MINUTE though ):
still, cute wins annoyance by 59 seconds.
but i'm still upset he is moving step by step into the circle, where melissa & dickson call the "monster-age"?

anyway, we're already starting to plan for his FIRST BIRTHDAY!!
cant wait cant wait.
i wanna bake him cute mini cupcakes!
05012009.

dip. plus yesterday was thought provoking.
what with the three kinds of friendships being mentioned:
friendships based on utility, friendships based on pleasure, and friendships based on virtue.
-Aristotle; Nicomachean Ethics-

dip. plus today, was traumatizing.

miss tan was demonstrating family therapy today with her very own family genogram,
illustrating her family culture passed down from her grandparents.
so many atimes, i wanted to cry.
because i saw many similarities. (with yan ling's family yes, but more importantly, with ms tan's family too. i was near the verge of tears not because i was sad. ok, maybe partially. but more importantly, i was happy that even with a dysfunctional family, i could, most probably, turn out fine like ms tan did. countless of times, i honestly thought i was losing my sanity and i am going to turn out a wreck when i grow up. now, i just wanna cry with relief.)

bouts of bad mood hit me throughout the day.
with alex and dickson being their usual irritating and annoying selves,
but occassionally toe-ing the lie and making it a little taunt, made me lost it for awhile.
with ms big-boobs-know-it-all trying to be a spoiler, i honestly couldn't be more bothered to give her anything more than a half-hearted smile and a patronizing "oh".
behind her back i rolled my eyes and stuck out my tongue at her.
ONE MORE THING about the books i swear i'm going to puncture your boobs and eyeballs and sew your mouth, you annoying ms big-boobs-know-it-all-and-hypocrite.
and with sp, being totally insensitive, as usual.
anooyance and irritants everywhere.

in comparison, the annoyance kynan brings seems so blissful.

AND OMG I DONT KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME I PRONOUNCED HYPOCRITE TODAY AS "HAI-PO-CRIT" instead of "HIPPO-CRIT" -.-
and yesterday, while walkin to FEB tutorial, i accidentally whacked the back of my knee with my vaio and i stumbled.
like ?!?! super spasticated can, what's wrong with me!

random thing Alex drew on his notes.
hmmm, i think it was last tues' FEB lecture.
scary huh. especially when it's blurred.


Yan Ling and Shi Ping doing pole-dance around Mr.Ng as forfeit during monday's dip. plus. (monday before deepavali.)

playing the number game.


happy people after they completed the game my group facilitated.

Mel's Birthday Cake - strawberry cheesecake from swissbake

Mr. and Mrs. Clarke!
hahaha.

Melissa, super happy.

making wish...

looks yummy?

really super duper extremely supremely happy looking baby. ((:

the happiness on her face is just contagious lah (though a bit spasticated.)

this is what i call, "DIG IN".

Fisherman's Wharf for dinner on Friday.

The Clinic thereafter for drinks.

Sex on the Drip

mmm, i loved it.

sitting on the wheelchair. i seriously wanted to be wheelchair-bound that night because my maryjanes were killing me. and the hormones imbalance werent helping.

melly baby drew them all. i drew eeyoreee!

haha.

how much did we fare? ((:

P.S. i just lost my bottle today ):

no, my mum lost it. she left it somewhere after drinking..

argh. dang. was growing fond of it.

yes yes,

that's us.

that's our title.

shayenne, melissa, carmen.

gold diggers forever. tsk tsk.

Tropic Thunder with Dickson and Melissa @ Vivo on Wednesday.

1hour lecture cancelled! whoots. no school no school! ((:

thanks dickson for the treat although you dont read my blog.

wow. cool.

i'd love to have it. haha.
and chocopoly from Party City @ Holland V!

heartzxzx!

someday, someday.

we'll buy it melly.

TAMAGOTCHI!
someday someday,
we'll magnet someone to buy it for us kaes baby.

melly told me a story, like a SUPER DUPER lame story, on why doraemon & hello kitty should be best friends forver.
and told me to get the doraemon watch so she could get the hello kitty one.

of course, NOT.
i wont get the doraemon one. NO WAY.

random.

after duty at East Coast Park on 1Nov.
on 196 on the way to City Hall (suntec)


people in The Clean & Green Race doing the crossword puzzle at mel & my station ((:
it's the FIRST GROUP we've encountered, and the ONE AND ONLY GROUP that completed the crossword puzzle.
bitch alert in front of me! haha.

darryl & clinton ((:

camwhoring cuz too tired but dont wanna sleep but too bored if i dont nap on the bus.

seahorse chop! loveee.

CRAZEEELEEE

filled with people.

quote clinton, "after that we went to marina barrage where the queue for the shuttle bus is longer than 100 elephant trunks connected together. bloody hell man seriously."

and we were so oxygen deprived on the bus.

the East Coast Park Team!
"East Coast!!!"

"EAST COAST PARK ROCKS!!"

on the way to City Hall.
Melissa, Jocelyn, Natalie & Me.
we WALKED, TREKKED, all the way out from Marina Barrage to Marina Bay MRT!
omg i swear i never walked for so long ever since jungle trekking at Batam.
my legs were about to give way my ankles were screaming, my soles were protesting.
i think we walked for about 1.5hours to reach Marina Bay mrt.

subway for dinner, loveee!
honey oat. chicken teriyaki. extra cheese. toasted. lettuce only. honey mustard and mayo. chocolate chip.
ALL TIME FAVOURITE.


sometimes,
i wish my brain would stop processing.
there's just too many things i wish life were simpler.
sometimes,
i wish my brain would process things faster.
more analytical, less emotional.

for my baby <3 and my candygirl

I am the wind.

On land, no blade of grass moves without me.
At sea, every rising wave is touched by me.
Wherever you are, I am high enough to see you.
And strong enough to reach out to you;
and place strength in your hand.
You may not always see me.
But you will always feel me.

For I am here, for a higher purpose.

---

All through a lifetime, I'll be loving you.
And then,
on the day after FOREVER,
I'll just begin again.
All through a lifetime, I'll be loving you.
And then,
on the day after FOREVER,
I'll just begin again.
All through a lifetime, I'll be loving you.
And then... ... ... ...

(and then and then and then and then and then!)
lol internal joke ah joke.

cuz afterall, you're my wonderwall <3
i need my wonderwall now.
keep up with the façade, girl.
keep it up, keep it up.
but i'm so tired, she says.
i just want to break down and cry.

but i'm supergirl.
hold on, hold on.
but dont hold too tight.
hold on, hold on.
until somebody is here to save you,
hold on, hold on.

love's beautiful, so beautiful.

Do not stand at my grave and weep

I am not there
I do not sleep

I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints on snow

I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle Autumn rain

When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds

In circled flight
I am the soft stars that shine at night

Do not stand at my grave and cry

I am not there
I did not die

---

Goodbye, No use leading with our chins,
This is where our story ends,
Never lovers, ever friends.

Goodbye, Let our hearts call it a day,
But before you walk away,
I sincerely want to say:

I wish you bluebirds in the Spring,
To give your heart a song to sing;
And then a kiss, but more than this I wish you love.

And in July, a lemonade,
To cool you in some leafy glade;
I wish you health and more than wealth, I wish you love.
My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be,
So with my best, my very best, I set you free.

I wish you shelter from the storm,
A cozy fire to keep you warm;
But most of all, when snowflakes fall,
I wish you love.

I wish you bluebirds in the Spring,
To give your heart a song to sing;
And then a kiss, but more than this I wish you love.

And in July, a lemonade,
To cool you in some leafy glade;
I wish you health and more than wealth, I wish you love.
My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be,
So with my best, my very best, I set you free.

I wish you shelter from the storm,
A cozy fire to keep you warm;
But most of all, when snowflakes fall,
I wish you love.

like a bitch.

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you over think
Always speak
Crypticly

I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you) You don't really want to stay, no
(but you) But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be
Just like twins
So in sync
The same energy
Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring

I should know that
You're not gonna change

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

---

so,
so what?
i wanna start a fight.

prings of mishandlers; stuck.

monday
was a super tiring day.
three tutorials in a row.
then 2 lectures.
then SMART meeting.
and then conduct Dip. Plus activities for the class.
baby was in melaka. boohoo ):

tuesday
tutorial was horrible.
FM tutorial = don't know what teacher is talking about.
PSCM tutorial = private chit chat session and slacking session
why are the modules in this Semester so boring?
after lessons, bitchy session with baby! ((:
hahaha. as usual, there was fun love laughter joy.

"HAHAHAHAHA! OMG damn spastic. Why you so stupid, I going to pee in my pants already!"

"But their family very big what. Maybe got some government financial assistance?"

"Family big so what, 'Ok la ok la, your family so big, ok la we (govt) give you a bungalow to live in."

-.-

wednesday
baby is suay.
her alarm clock didn't ring so she missed CB lecture. (buttt, she's not that suay cuz today's attendance is sign attendance list so i signed for her. haha)
and den while textin me in the morning, her hot pink motorola just died on her without any indications.
suay right? not.
(she's not that suay afterall, her motorola auto-revived -.-)

i lost my phone at Vivo. after U600 died, my mum's ex U700 was lost.
prior to this i actually "lost" (dropped) my phone twice already (U600).
once i dropped it in Topshop and once i dropped it in River Island.
both times i already stepped out of the store already far away elsewhere, but both times i managed to find it back at the cashier counter.
this time i dropped it in Forever21. i haven't even left the store, havent even paid for the merchandise i'm intendin to buy and i cant find the phone back already!

what happened:
after tryin clothes, walkin around at the accessories section.
wah. nice zebra prints stuff, take picture with phone and show baby tmr..
take picture, take picture, take picture.
wah. nice belt. puts stuffs down, try.
wah. nice scarf/shawl. walks over, take scarf/shawl, walk to mirror, put stuffs down, try, walk back, puts down scarf/shawl, linger around.
walks over to cashier.
SHIT. where's my phone?
and i scanned the whole area i've visited after taking the picture phone is nowhere to be found.
ask cashier, also dont have.

?!?! ridiculously suay.

left vivo at 1230.. went tpy, ate, and bought super lots of stuffs from NTUC & Phoon Huat.
omg i spent a B.O.M.B.
i had to cab home cuz i seriously have no strength to lug everything back to the interchange and take bus home.
my muscles are aching.
reached home around 3+

told my mum i lost my phone and as usual, the laments just came raining down on me like the pouring rain outside the window.
thereafter i tried to do some stuffs and also, AS USUAL, the naggings just wouldnt stop flying at me, like the arrows of the ancient war-men during war times. (THINK RED CLIFF)
they keep trying to penetrate me but i think i've already toughened up my armour so strong that my mum's arrows just cant pierce through already.

but it is still upsetting, though not as upsetting as the past, that no matter what i do, you just wont give me your support, would you?
you werent proud of me when i represented school for captain's ball competition.
you werent proud of me when i won inter-class captaion's ball competition.
you werent even proud of me when i won the NATIONAL champion in translation back in CCPS.
you werent proud of me when i was chosen to represent DHS for national young leadership camp.
you werent proud of me when i went for CO performance; either you leave halfway claiming you had a headache, or you dont come at all claiming that it's a bore.
you never complimented me at all, almost never, all my life.
you never supported me in anything that i do, always giving me the wet blanket, always setting restrictions, always saying that it's not enough.
when i made mistakes, you harp about it, over and over again.
when i did things that you dont like, you just go on and on and on that i'm rebellious.

this is sick luh.


when can u learn to be supportive like daddy?
to always be there for me?
supportive, caring, attentive, listens to what i want to say, what i feel before jumping to conclusions, shares his life with me and wants to listen all about my life as well?
or simply, to love me just for who i am.


you never were.
you never will be.

inside the mind, outside the world

an endless road without a stop sign.
i'm scared, i'm scared.
would you be there to walk with me?
would you?

you seemed so psyched when u speak of fran,
but why is it you aren't happy when it's me?
i often have these doubts.
i often have these fears.
i cling on with my fingernails,
too scared of losing you.

i'm hanging on a thread, i'm hanging on a thread.
are you or are you not with me?
make these butterflies go away.
go away...
go away...




i missed you.

root word

wow wow wow!
first week of school ended in a blur, just like that! *snaps finger*

towned with the bitchesss on monday.
super craziness and bitchy and gossipy.
great shopping (:

queenstown to search for my dickies with baby.
nearly wanted to give up already, but LUCKY i remembered there's this quirky shop there that might sell dickies and TADA!
it was there.
wah cloud nine sia. happy until dunno like what bought it almost immediately.
bugis for Food For Thought with baby thereafter.
teared like mad dno what stupid odourless substance they were cooking, stung my eye like crazy.

wednesday was happiest day of the week.
we went to the zoo, zoo, zoo!
dickson, melly baby and i.
yes i agree it was fun but i beg to differ a little.
it would be more fun if it didn't rain AND if they had no snakes.
the snakes were giving me so much creeps, i'm ONE STEP away from phobiaaa.

thursday was rendezvous day with Clinton.
we nearly had sex in the SB club house.
yeah right ah Darryl, very funny.
towned with my mum after school. yay shopping!

today!
i OVERSLEPT whoots.
haha lesson starts at 9 and i woke up at 8.
too tired already sleep debt accumulate and my brain and body chose to go on a strike today.
tsk tsk.
wewo with crazy bitch baby. contemplated for super long if we wanna go back for Blaw tutorial and we did. (miracle sia. the temptation was so strong..)

wahhh.
yeah so, my first week just went past in a blur like that! *snaps finger again*

i shall let the pictures do the talking!

aites till next time!

alex - "BFF for life, yo!"

bryan - "i worked for 8 days."

jun liang - "bensss & jerry"

dickson - "i hope my wife will die, then i can inherit all her assets."

lecturer - "oh that depends if she's leaving anything for you in her will."

(yay i so love the lecturer. HA! eeevil dick.)

shayenne the oily lips

clinton and darryl...

and melly baby, needless to say,

countless of quotes - bitchy ones, sweet ones, hilarious ones.

LOL!

"and then... ... ... ...?"

school's a chore and school's a bore.

but, i'm thankful for the people i have (:

t1w1d1

baby was earlier than me!
ai xin mian bao.
snorts sniggers and laughters.
gossip sessions and ketchup sessions.
town with bitch and baby.
st leaven and brownie.
adidas adidas adidas!
dorothy perkins!
fourskin and forever21 (:
dickies white doodle please!
new MLT12, cancer lecturer, bensss&jerry.
stop embarassing yourself.
plans for tues, eggcitement nearly engulfed me - choked on eclipse.
new modules new teachers.
saikang warrior for the Fourtress.

we're going to the zoo, zoo, zoo!
how about you, you, you?
you can come too, too, too!
we're going to the zoo, zoo, zoo!


please dearly holy almighty beloved God, let there be sunshine on Wed, but! not TOO hot a weather.
Rain, rain, go away,
come again another day.
all the world is waiting for the sun ((:

---

i'm nine and you're seven.
i'm seven and you're nine.
fates intertwined?
paths divided?

school blues, school's boo.

met Lihui before work for some snack shopping.
lunched at 1240pm and BK again!
omg. i'm seriously going to balloon (or already am a balloon).
okay Virus is getting more and more nonsensical each day, i seriously can't believe this is the Virus i knew like a year ago.

and Rara is so cute cannn.
he said "Dior Homme" as "Dior Home-y"
omg it's so cute. Homme.
i mean normally people who cant pronounce would probably say "Hommm" or something, but "Home-y"?

aites.
i'm facing a wardrobe crisis here.
put on so much weight i've no idea what to wear tmr.
yikes.
schools's reopening and it sucks.

school blues,
school's boo.

shitass

ARGH.
this sucks.
work was shitass today.
(everytime i experience a shitass work day, i think of it as the most shitass one i've ever had.) but i think this time it's really the most shitass one i've ever had, like seriously. i swear on my m&ms.

lunch with rara, lihui & virus at BK (omg AGAIN. it's what i had last saturday with yaya -.-)
and after that raphael joined us and we went hotspot to chill & talk.
i've never felt this stressed in my entire 1 year with Sony.
true, roadshows were stressful too. but u get over it super quickly.
but this, oh boy. it's like RETRENCHMENT.
on us, the part-timers.
dont really think i should say too much here, lest Sony sues me LOL.
oh boy oh boy.
i haven't felt the lehman brother tremors since it happened but yes, now i feel the quake mann.


and it doesn't help when my shop's Vaio stocks aren't MOVING at all, while the others' are.
and it also doesn't help when the freaking other 2 sales people keep bugging me ALL DAY LONG to ask yaya out, like, WTH. if you have the balls you go ask her out yourself can.
you know how to get her friendster, you know the drill.
and it doesn't help to have a shop manager that's almost EQ retarded, saying the most ridiculous things to me.
like come on, i take my pay from Sony so i take all the crap they throw at me. (including the stress.)
please consider where you stand before you tell me to stop surfing the net, stop sms-ing, stop talking to the others.
i dont see any problem as long as i serve the customers and perform my responsibilities and duties.
and i mean, this shop is newly opened. not even a month old (only 3 weeks). the crowd flow is like.. ok i serve less than 10 customers a day (excluding those who aren't looking at Vaio but simply asked me questions cuz i'm at the shop entrance), so what am i to do? stand there and stone for 8hrs?
and who are you to tell me to go outside to drag customers in?
where do you think we're working at, Geylang?
i'm sorry my responsibilities stop at serving customers who are interested in (buying) Vaios, i'm not a hostess and i'm not paid to behave like one.

moron!

AND,
it doesn't help when no one noticed i dyed my hair PLUS had a haircut. (yes, i dyed my hair last night and cut my hair (2 inches!!) this morning. so much for "new semester, new hairdo" nobody even noticed -.-)
it also doesn't help that school is reopening in less than 2days' time, with the crappiest timetable i've ever seen.

bad bad day!
baby i need some lifting up!

muack, baby, muack

rendezvous with baby today.
wah lao. somebody ah, fell asleep and made me wait damn long lor.
coffee club and i spent the longest time in my entire life in Watson's.
i think prolly 1h15mins!?!?
baby couldn't decide on the hair colour she wants.
and i bought myself a hair dye too, whoots. spontaneously. (mama mia lol!)
so eggcited.
new look for new semester, aiseh aiseh.

"this girl very familiar, i've seen her before."

"really?"

"yeah, on the box."


i stole recipes from a cookbook!
bought myself a cupcake recipe book OMG i'm so gonna bake for my brother's birthday. (16th oct)
i seriously hope i do.
BUT!!!
i'll need to spend super-a-bomb on the ingredients and tools.




visit: http://www.cakeadoodledo.co.uk/
like, ohhhhhmygoodnessgracious "hideously" sinful temptations.

pretty dresses:

this is like selling at R.I now for $80!
omg i seriously like it but it is a tad too long for me (reaches my knee caps, so it looks a tad weird) but i seriously love it so much how how how omg.
perfect size somemore. last piece.
i so wanna die.

i love love love love LURVE this too why asos stuff so expensive.
i wanna be the girl who won 7million pounds from the euro toto lahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

so in lurve with this bag cannnn.
OMG if i cant find it in Queestown Shopping Centre, i dno where else i can find it.
if i cant find it in SG, i'll have to buy it online and have it shipped to Joel, who's currently in Boston, and have him ship to SG for me.
i dont believe i cant find it in SG cuz i saw somebody carrying it. roar. but where lah!

saturday fever:
after work.

chalet's high on martell:
your highness is super tak-glam here.
well, i was seriously high on alcohol already, can't blame me.

---

muack, baby, muack.

LOL.

historical moment

as great as Michael Phelps winning his 8th gold.


nocturnalvin says:
u are sounding like u are seeing some guys huh
׀[ c a r m e n ]׀ ☆ underwater; says:
ahaha
׀[ c a r m e n ]׀ ☆ underwater; says:
knew u'd say that
׀[ c a r m e n ]׀ ☆ underwater; says:
no i'm not
nocturnalvin says:
i have been observing
׀[ c a r m e n ]׀ ☆ underwater; says:
i'm seeing a girl
nocturnalvin says:
i am gay too
׀[ c a r m e n ]׀ ☆ underwater; says:
cool
׀[ c a r m e n ]׀ ☆ underwater; says:
lets come out of the closet
nocturnalvin says:
lets get out of the closet..and give your mum a rude shock

-highlight is we typed the last 2 sentences together!-


i cannot fathom how my life would be without my 2 brothers.
oh boy, life would be so boring.
and they shaped me into who i am today.
and at times,
most times,
their love is what keeps me sane in trying times,
what keeps me safe in moments,
moments when i feel so alone i could only hear my own heartbeat and sobs.
<3

incoherent nonsense because i got influenced by the vaio-ians.

still i wonder why it is

i dont argue like this with anyone but you

we do it all the time

blowing out my mind

work was pretty good i suppose? (:
although first day was super lousy, cuz i didn't sell a thing, and i didnt liked the shop manager and the shop's atmosphere, but i managed to make new friends and widen my social circle. haha.
alex the second in charge & jonathan who's also from SP.
lunched with shunya.
saw kit, LC, alan, patrick, all the familiar faces that i haven't seen since comex.
met weixiong and his girl, andrea.
i feel bad towards my gyl peeps, sorry couldn't meet you guys.
dinner with shunya & sherilyn.
although it was only for 2 hours or so, it felt great catching up with the girls ((:

today was even better!
haha.
1hour into my work, i went for lunch with the vaio peeps: alan, patrick, virus, raphael, rara & lihui my girl!
cant survive without her.
1 hour plus after lunch i sold 2 vaios ((:
made another new friend, jason.
jason and alex are super funny. made me lmao.
after work, went bugis with lihui ((:
finally, after pang seh-ing her so many million times, we went out ONCE.
hahaha.
i'm so sorry babe, and thanks for waiting for me to knock off! and thanks for helping me bargain with that nonsense for early release!
wahaha.

ok i am seriously too lethargic to blog sensically and coherently.
so i'm going to end here.
movie marathon with sheri tmr!
cant wait ((:
tues rendezvous with baby!
wed i wanna go phuture with the girls.
shall find means and ways to go ha!

it's not the easiest thing to avoid

finally.
the long awaited bomb has ticked.
TIMETABLE IS RELEASED!
and ohmygod it sucks like hell. i am so sad.
it is totally compelling me to give up on French.
9am-10am lecture on wed. and i have absolutely 7.5 hours of NOTHING ahead but wait aimlessly for French to start at 1730.
SIGH!
now now, what GEMs shd i take?

the attracting the wrong crowd thing has got to stop before it drives me crazy. (baby!! help!)
the person i yearn for to make a move is behaving as though i mean nothing.
the person i dont have feelings for is making moves like crazy.(one minute J asks to go wakeboarding with him on cable, the next minute J asks to go melbourne with him in december. is that crazy or what? ok first, that's considered making moves right? lol.)

bah.
i'm bored.
watching Desperate Housewives S3 all day long.
minimal efforts put in to try pack up my room.
outing with the MS Color roadshow people tmr. cant wait! (:

sx on the furthest left. he is a seriously crazily funny person.
shengyang. katherine's "affair". NYP.
me.
katherine. NP.
jasmine. (daughter of MS Color's boss, kinda like our boss of the show.)
patrick. my supposedly "husband", who's from SP too.
laura. ivan's (wee) "wife". RP.
wei lun. katherine's "husband".
ivan wee. crappiest person of the lot. NYP?!?!
ivan loh. jasmine's younger brother. NYP.

---

didn't want to work anymore after the MS Color roadshow..
wanted to take a breather,

BUT!

i am contemplating decided on Omnia for my new phone and it is freaking going to cost me $598.

and then i'm contemplating on getting Sony T300 OR T500 OR T700 (will be waiting for advice from Ivan (loh) and Wei Lun before i decide on which one to get..) which is freaking going to cost me another few hundred bucks. about $450 - $570 depending on what model i get..

-sigh-

so i'll be working at Sim Lim this weekend.
boo.
i'm so tired with tons of things to do...!

can money just fall from the sky for me?
pretty pretty please?

P.S. and i'm missing my girls.
like, who? cuz almost everyone and anyone i know are "my girls".
haha. ALL la ALL la, everyone! lol.
how the hell am i supposed to:
- go zoo "dating" with dickson, melissa & alex
- meet up with li hui & go shopping
- meet up with shay & mel for shopping trip
- go drinking with dickson (and maybe "the rest")
- meet up with xiuyi
- meet up with doris
- meet up with nigus
- meet up with 08 girls
ALL BEFORE SCHOOL REOPENS ON THE THIRTEENTH?!

3rd - outing
4th - working + steamboat with justice bao after work
5th - working
6th - bonding session
9th - pre-bonding-camp
10th-12th - bonding camp

and i've still got a million things to do on my list.

forbiddened.

You cast a spell over me
I don't know where to turn to anymore
I see your face
Every morning when I wake up
Every night when I go to bed
You're here with me some how
Don't know how
I can feel you here right now
So close
So real
Doo doo-doo doo-doo
Show me your colours

Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell I'm in
Please don't break my heart
Show me
Show me your colours, baby
Tell me who you really are

I know you want what I want
Far away
But still within our reach
Do you dare
Are you brave enough to show me
What your heart really wants to?
I say your name to my self out loud
Wanna have you all around
Like a cover for the cold and the outside
Making love in the candle lights
Doo doo-doo doo-doo

Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell I'm in
Please don't break my heart
Show me
Show me your colours
Baby
Tell me who you really are

Baby
Don't tell me I mean nothing
After all you did
Baby
Don't you tell me
Tell me I mean nothing
Tell me I mean nothing to you
Please show me now

Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell I'm in
Please don't break my heart
Show me
Show me your colours
Baby
Tell me who you really are

Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell I'm in
Please don't break my heart
Show me
Show me your colours
Baby
Tell me who you really are

I'm not allowed to adore you
The way you know I really want
But I do
Even though it's been a nightmare
To pretend that it's all over
It's not the easiest thing to avoid
Damage is already done
I'm in love
With
You


I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy