am currently at my da sao's place right now..
ok. i jinxed it. i was about to type "he's sleeping soundly right now" and he just happened to jerk awake. ):
MY BAD!

last sunday when i came over for swimming my brother asked me to buy him a pair of shades.
and guess what! my da sao bought them already...
from GAP. and the good thing is i have a MATCHING pair of shades! (:

my handsome boy is so adorable.
and he loves watching kids' central and go mumbling after the characters speak.

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BLOODY tired now. i only had 4hours of sleep.
and it wasn't even a nice peaceful sleep because i had a really bad tummyache and i kept tossing and turning through the night.
feeling cold without the quilt one moment, feeling too warm under the quilt another.

digression:
my da sao's Asus is electrifying me every other second it's ANNOYING.

have been working at the Funan's Courts Roadshow.
JiaXuan surprisingly worked there too! was early on the first day so i was tying my hair in the toilet early in the morning and this ghostly face appeared next to my reflection and scared the wits out of me.
deng deng! shocker. she's working for Vaio too, and what an idiot! she didn't tell me beforehand.
met up with aihui, lihui, raphael and rara (i forgot his chi name).
went Yakun for breakfast with Lucas (without raphael & rara)
slacked there till 1130 (when we were supposed to start work at 10) and the booth hasn't arrived yet, so Alan asked us to continue slacking until he calls me.
went for lunch at KFC at 1230 till 130 before finally setting up our booth for the roadshow.
(good news? we still get our pay for 10-130 =P)

business was bad. really bad. only 3 sales.
lihui 2
aihui 1
6 of us had dinner with Virus (who came down from Sim Lim) at LJS and he brought us to The Loof. (i left early. AGAIN)
the following day was bad too but i can't remember the sales figure. oh, and Mandy & Joel joined us! (:
3rd day, JiaXuan got transferred to Challenger 6thlevel, Rara to MC.2 3rd level and Raphael to MC.2 4th level. ):
but their sales was surprisingly good!
JiaXuan 4
Raphael 14
Rara 6
me? 2!! omg.

last day, was crazily busy.
but yet the sales was not exactly very good. at least not for me.
after settling our timesheets and sitting outside Courts like a bunch of shagged beggars, (and much contemplating between xuan and me,) we went Cathay Cineleisure and ate at Kobayashi. I think the noodles are giving me the tummyaches now. ):
went Kpool (Virus & Raphael played billard, Aihui, Mandy, Joel & Rara played pool, Jia Xuan, Me & Lihui just sat there and chat. Sorry to Lihui that we left you out during certain topics!)
around 1130, we went Kbox and only left in the wee hours of the morning at 4am.

reached home at 430am and got a lashing from my mum ):
and i woke up at 848 after much uncomfortable toss and turn from the very bad tummyache.

i have the greatest two best friends in the world! (:
♥ Wong Xiu Yi and Claire Neo Wei Ling, I love you girls to bits and pieces! ♥
my BFFs for 7 and 6 years respectively..

♥ xiuyi:
through my darkest hours and darkest times, it was you who brought me laughter, brought me comfort. you who gave me hope, gave me the courage to move on.
Thank You so much for the love and support recently.
especially this week, which has been a really rough one for me.
and i can never ever express in words the feelings i feel for you, my dear bff.
the chemistry we share, the bond we share, the understanding we share, the love we share.

my family, my sister.

and after reading your blog, i didn't know what to say.

"helloo.
the official FIRST post on this blog.
hope this is a beginning of something that will last [my BFF. she knows the meaning.]

anyway, on to sth that came as a shock. no. more like a nice surprise actually.
my BFF's Dip Plus teacher-in-charge called her out of the blue, and started interviewing her, yes, through the phone. she was shaking so badly due to nerves but she still managed to complete the conv [tho frm what she described, she really wasn't at her best]. but that's not the point. the point is, she managed to make such an impression on that particular Mr Ng that he called her! Her email and calls just demonstrates her passion for Dip Plus. and her efforts paid off. it's like getting a new clue in the development of a new strain for GM food [be it rice, potatoes or other fruits, veg, staples that I, frankly speaking, cant list out for you right now. or rather, the list can be far too long]. Although there is still a long way towards the actual harvesting of this particular GM crop [with whatever pros, such as shorter harvesting time, higher yield, higher tolerance level to frost, that ultimately results in an increased food supply. tho most of these may not end up in the hands, or to be exact, mouth and stomach, of those who are in most need of it.] , it is still a step, however small, towards the goal.
and she's doing it. inching her way.

I am so proud of my BFF and her short story[ending not known yet] really inspires me. I feel that this is an example of how we should live our lives. should we stumble through life aimlessly and make this the most unmeaningful walk we have taken or should we make it an exhilarating sprint to the finish line? you make the choice. I just want to tell my BFF: no matter the ending is that of a HK comedy or a Korean-you-just-can't-help-but-weep-soap, you know you have learnt the lesson. one that pulls you back to reality, whether cruelly or leniently. and THIS is the most important thing. right?

I love you too and I'm sorry I am not always available. I will take note tho, and hopefully you'll always find me there to catch, when you jump. cliche. I know.


_*sorry to those who are reading, for the lousy GM food example (I have no idea why, but it just came to mind) and some of the other rubbish I wrote.


I learnt sth today: Do what you love to love what you do."

i'm really speechless and dumbfounded. the feeling was just so intense i cried.
i had one of the best night of my life.
i have a friend who is actually inspired by me.
that's really such a BIG-ASS bombastic word to me.
and i have a friend who cared enough to call me.
i love my wonderful friends.

Credits to my elder brother, for the quote he told me: "Do what you love to love what you do".

♥ claire:
the most awesome and amazing sweet girl i've ever met.
i was kinda worried when you smsed and said you wanna talk while i was at work.
i thought something went wrong between you and eugene.
i was stupidly worrying that what if i don't call you soon enough and something bad happens, it'll be all my fault.
but i was assured when i heard your cheerful voice, followed by,
"What happened, Carmen? Why did you sound so sad in your blog recently?"
we talked and talked into the night. about everything and anything.
we haven't talked like that for so long.
just the two of us.
it felt so good. i slept really well. a smile lingered on my face. a warmth emanated from me deep within, just thinking of these 2 sweetest things on earth the holy beings above the clouds bestowed me.

Dunman High Prom:
yes i know i took your first kiss. you took MINE too, so stop grumbling. and stop asking me to marry you.

look at that contented look on my face! and miss snail looking like she's so devoted to (kissing) me whole-heartedly.

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and after all,

you two are my wonderwall.

with you, i will not fall,

i will not fall.

what your highness has been up to...

have been very interested in cooking pastas recently!
mainly i just anyhow throw things in, try a sip, then continue throwing random things i think it needs and tada!

mashed potato with cheese & macaroni with cheese.
very sinful, but i was trying to clear the stuffs i bought for the chalet la...

will be working from 27th March to 30th March at Funan. Come visit me!! (:

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26th March

I SLACKED MY DAY OFF AND ROT AT HOME.

the teacher-in-charge called.
i was so taken aback and i was shaking all over, i thought i was going to...well, i dont know.
i just thought something was going to happen at the rate that i'm shaking. i couldn't even speak properly, and my mind was blank, and there were alot of silent pauses from my end, and i kept using "really really really".
i don't know if i screwed up but i nearly cried, and i started mumbling a little.
and i was still shaking when i tried to call xiuyi..

i remember something my mum said years ago: 听天由命
if it's yours it's yours.
if it's not, then no point forcing.
i've done my best to salvage the situation.
it's up to the panel to review my case. once the decision is made, it's final.
in due time, i shall just pray hard.
all of you will pray for me too, wont you?

25th March

after wallowing in my own pity, went to meet xiuyi at suntec.
i love me BFF so so so much!
(but she can be rather out of reach at times... not someone who you can reach immediately as and when you like. hmm. reminds me of Leo being described as not "geographically desirable" by Piper..)

24th March

my dear monk left for training at India, New Delhi ):
he'll only be back on 8th Apr.
had breakfast with him at Bugis' BK, went to Sim Lim to buy his earphones, my Norton, shopped around before sending him home to prepare for airport.
Surprised him at the airport because he thought I wasn't sending him off.
i realized my boy is very gullible =P


Sprinkles donuts at Bugis Village!
they're not bad and guess what's best about them?
they're minis! I bought 6 at $4.50.
very mini, it's about the of our palms, which makes it so delectable because you can eat so many flavours and not feel full!
go try! (:

i felt very nervous that night.
and not knowing what to do, i started to miss monk alot, alot.
he is ALWAYS there for me, lending me a listening ear, giving me comfort whenever i feel down, sharing my joys whenever i feel happy.
and there i was, so lost, so lost.
and all i had were polaroids of us.
and the cranes i folded for him for his return.

I'm thankful I have xiuyi though, who has been the one pulling me through this difficult time.
(:

23rd March

Sunday = Family Day!

Swimming at Gor's place with Daddy & Gor. Kynan was supposed to swim too but he fell asleep before we even reached the swimming pool...

isn't he A-D-O-R-A-B-L-E???
awww. he's such a lovely boy. (minus the throwing tantrums part..)

did my nails at night! yes your highness D.I.Y-ed herself! NICE???

22nd March

went to catch DHSCO concert with Doris, Xiuyi & Rachel..

from left: doris, rachel, xiuyi, me, stefanie (senior), yan ru (senior)
from left: rachel, me, liu lao shi, zheng lao shi, doris, xiuyi
(Kelvin Ho took this photo and I think his injured leg impaired his eyesight & judgement tremendously)

on our way to search for "the Timbre behind the arts house"...
we saw this!:

cannot resist the temptation to take a picture with my darling classic cars...

TADA! CARMEN LOVES CLASSIC CARS!

chilled at Timbre for Hell's Kitchen Pizza, Lime Margarita, China Blue.

very nice ambience there but a tad too crowded.
i like the lighting and the atmosphere and the band (:

21st March

Caught 10,000BC with HeSheng (who has been harping about watching it since it screened)

shopped around at Marina Square before meeting Natalie, and both of us went to meet Wen Bin & Jun Xiang for Spaggedies, but we ended up sitting at Secret Recipe's table, while waiting for a seat at Spaggedies, and the Secret Recipe people gave us the menu so we ended up eating at Secret Recipe.


surprise surprise! (i forgot to rotate the picture before i upload..)
Tay Wen Bin & Ong Jun Xiang bought me a birthday present!
shock of the year!

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18th March
after working from 13th-16th March, met some great new friends(:

went out with Aihui, Lihui & Virus...

I know this sounds horrifying, and unbelievable, but I had my F.I.R.S.T sakae meal in my entire life with aihui, lihui & virus on Tuesday, 18th March.
hahaha.

watched Step-Up 2 and we went Pool Fusion:
With Li Hui

With 病毒 (only I can call him that! LOL.)

With Ai Hui
where Li Hui and I embarrassed our heads off with our superb pool-ing techniques, became a laughing stock and bored Virus to death.

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8th March
Chomp Chomp for dinner.
Playing with Sparkles at park.
ICE 3 for dessert.
Count down to 9th March (:

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Nineteenth Birthday Bash (:
Morning of 6th March at White Sands' Mac, after TONG XIAO mahjong & German Bridge & Dai Dee.

The ALMIGHTY Nineteenth Birthday Princess Your Highness,
with her ALMIGHTY humongous royal carousel cake.

With the ALMIGHTY Princess's Daddy, Your Majesty.

With the Princess's faithful subject, President of the GANs.

With the hot GANs vice-president who has the same princessy attitude splattered all over her tee.

With the sucker who disappeared from Singapore for months without a trace and without contact!

With the super duper bimbotic "bad girl".

With the DHSCO people.

#2

#3
#4

#5

#6

#7

you start to wonder why you're 'here' not 'there'

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now

Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...

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i'm scared. i'm really really scared.
my heart is sinking by the second.
my stomach is down in the pits i can't find it.
my intestines are all tangled up in fear, anxiety and ambiguity.

what happens next?
i don't know.
i've been calling every half an hour.
every half an hour.
half of me dying to reach someone, to seek clarifications.
half of me reluctant to hear the words, afraid they'll break me into pieces.
but no one is answering the phone.
the answering machines are killing me, but yet a part of me feels relieved.

i've come so far.
i chose SP not because my brother was here before, but because of this.
and now, no letter.
no letter of notification.
yanling got hers 2weeks ago.
the email last month said successful applicants would be notified by end of march.
yet, no news, no news at all.

"Don't worry," I assured myself, "the letter's probably lost in the mail. Just call and ask and you'd find your name on the list. Tell them you didn't receive the letter and all will be fine."
The paranoid Carmen then question, "Would something like this happen? Wouldn't the Singapore Post take more care in delivering letters from organizations and schools with their big names printed on the envelope?" and my heart sank, a few centimetres down.
"You sure my name is on the list?" the little red thing that keeps me alive sank further, and with it, the weight in the pit of my stomach grew heavier.
"Even my French letter has reached me, how could the letter for Dip.Plus be lost?" my heart and brain feels like they're burning, burning with questions, hopes, desires, ambiguity, confidence, disappointment, doubts.

"I'm sure it's just lost in the mail. Just call and ask and you shall receive."
yes i'm sure.
and half of me is in denial.

time to call again.


it's over.

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I was blown away
What could I say
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything
That I can't do without.

I try to see the good in life.
But good things in life are hard to find.
I'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?

(well i'll try to do it right this time around)
let's start over,
I'll try to do it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me
But you're the only one
It's not over.

I've taken all I can take
And I cannot wait
We've wasted too much time
Being strong and holding on
Can't let it bring us down

My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easily
I'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?
Cause it's all misunderstood

(Well I'll try to do it right this time around)
Let's start over,
I'll try to do it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me
But you're the only one
It's not over.

We can't let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don't get caught up in yourself
Let it out.

Let's start over
We'll try to do to it right this time around
Its not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me
But you're the only one
It's not over.

Lets start over
It's not over

Yeah yeah
This love is killing me
But you're the only one
It's not over

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i really wish i could say "it's not over".

you start to wonder why you're 'here' not 'there'...

Carmen

What Carmen Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Well, what do you think?

you cut me open and i...

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

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i just felt like crying when i heard this song yesterday.
i felt like i was really being cut up inside.
and yet i could feel no pain.
too numb to feel anything.
and those words really cut me up.
and while i was bleeding away,
you could not see it, you could not see it.


once or twice is really enough.
no more
no more.

am honestly, seriously D.E.A.D.B.E.A.T.

went to bed at 150am.
tossed.
turned.
tossed.
turned.
tossed.
turned.

i probably fell asleep at 230am?
i just couldn't keep my thoughts tamed.
they kept going wild and wilder.
it was very difficult to sleep. ):

difficulties in dragging my lazy bum out and because i wanna finish Heroes 1 asap, i tried to load it into my tyty to watch on the way and caused alot of time delay.
so in the end, instead of bus, i took train. but i had to WALK like crazy.
first was speed walkin to Serangoon MRT. (hello, MRT's not at my DOORSTEP)
den speed walking from dhoby ghaut NEL to dhoby ghaut NSL.
den MORE MORE MORE speed walking from City Hall through City Link Mall to Suntec Entrance to Tropics Atrium.
god i was bushed before i started working!

now, my calves are aching like hell. even my SHINS (shins?!?!) & TOES are screaming! damn. my roadshow stamina is really goner. bah!

set up and started sales around 12pm.. stood the whole day!
well at least i'm paid by the hour.
there were 10 part-timers including moi and 5 of them are paid only $30 basic per day. $15 for normal Vaio & $20 for high ends. (define high ends???)

met tons of cool people. and this is a FUN FUN FUN roadshow cuz (almost) everyone's of the same age ranging from 18-turning-19 to 21?
and they're really fun and cute bunch and we mingled well though we came from different places.
majority NYP, a couple of SP.

and yay! xiuyi came to visit me! heehee. we had dinner...
although meals are provided. which i'm very happy too because i'm very very very BROKE now after the birthday party, and having being jobless for so long.

GO CARMEN GO!!!

best of sales to me, cheers!

destiny.

What if i never knew
What if i never found u
I'd never have this feeling in my heart
How did this come to be
I don't know how you found me
But from the moment I saw you
Deep inside my heart I knew

Baby you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be
My destiny

I wanted someone like you
Someone that I could hold on to
And give my love until the end of time
But forever was just a word
Something I'd only heard about
But now you're always there for me
When you say forever I believe

Baby you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be
My destiny

Maybe all we need is just a little faith
'Cause baby I believe that love will find the way
Baby you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as I far as I can see
From now until eternity
You were always meant to be
My destiny

Happy

Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: joyous
Synonyms: blessed, blest, blissful, blithe, can't complain, captivated, cheerful, chipper, chirpy, content, contented, convivial, delighted, ecstatic, elated, exultant, flying high, gay, glad, gleeful, gratified, hopped up, intoxicated, jolly, joyful, joyous, jubilant, laughing, light, lively, looking good, merry, mirthful, overjoyed, peaceful, peppy, perky, playful, pleasant, pleased, satisfied, sparkling, sunny, thrilled, tickled, tickled pink, up, upbeat

I'm a Happy Happy Girl! (:

why, but thanks to all the lovely friends i have and hold.

Dear Natalie, my president of the GANs, you know how much I Love You! So if I tell you I dread receiving Body Shop because
#1 I've been receiving it for consecutive 3 years now! (first orange, then rose, now mango & clementine. is that the same as orange?) and
#2 I've sensitive skin which = I don't use soaps other than Dove, Johnsons & Johnsons & Simple, please don't be mad at me ok?

I love you girlies no matter what the presents are!

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Thank Yous

to XiuYi,
for being the bestest best friend I could ever ask for.

for always being there, listening to my craps, my troubles, my woes and sorrows, sharing my joy, my happiness, my hopes and dreams.

for being my MARIA through the chalet, helping me through every ups and downs and every emotion that was surging through me at the time.

to Claire,

for being the sweetest and most awesome girlfriend.

for the 6years of friendship you've bestowed me.
for all the fun and laughters you've brought me, not forgetting the woes and sorrows that cemented our friendship.

Love you lots too!

to Nigus, (including Christina too!)
Chloe for being my macho muscle woman (although you're scared of insects!) for your crappiness and disgusting-burping-out-loud-ness.
(and HA-HA-HA-HA! MONEY MONEY!)
Clarissa for your forever-bimbotic-antics and for being so huggable! and i haven't forgotten my promise! i will protect you! *winks*
Christina, although you weren't here with us, but you're always in our hearts!
Thank you for the card! awww.
Jia Jia, for your helium BEH-LOOOOON (it's not YALLOW?) and the 4 x 1.5L of water! thanks mann, life saviour! Thank you for simply coming! and you know although i keep saying you suck, for not replying my smses or smsing me, i still miss you loads deep down =P
Claire, (read above!!)

to Natalie,
although you couldn't come to help due to your OT, you're much appreciated ok!
and cheers to our 6years of friendship!
we will commence our TRIPLE DATE some time! LOVE!

to my 6princesses and 1dwarf,
thank you so much for the present, the card, the paperchase bag & paperchase wrapper!
I LOVE my instax mini very very much thank you (:
despite the ups and downs we've experienced throughout the whole of Year 1 (and also on the party itself), i'm still glad to have known you girls! (:

the video! i've decided to share it here!:



many thanks to yanling for the video and my condolences for your dead brain cells (:

to doris, rachel and zhuang yuan
for simply coming! (:
for being the wonderful people that i can rely on during my DHSCO days..

to my parents,
despite the quarrels, despite the fights, despite the tiffs and bickerings,
i know and feel the love you both have for me, deep down within your hearts.
my mum, for always giving negative, pessimistic, disapproving comments, but in the end, you'd still help and support me.
my dad, for always being the positive, optimistic and supportive parent, pointing out the details that i've overlooked, giving me all the advices. I'll never forget all the words of wisdoms you've said to me. simple and shallow they may be, but the meaning that follows is greater than the depth of the seas.

to my brothers,
for being my financial support! (my parents are too la duh)
for always (most of the time) succumbing to my whims and fancies =P
for being the best brothers i could ever ask for. despite the fact that we're only half-siblings, both of you has never hesitated in showering me with your utmost love, care and concern, and would always put me before yourselves, and protecting me, guiding me, helping me in the past 19years.

to HeSheng,
I LOVE YOU boy!

Many heartfelt thanks to everyone!
and thanks for all the birthday wishes (:

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other random things that are giving me endorphins:
- Congratulations to my loveliest friends for all the good results!
- I finally got my wireless modem! my connection speed is a POW-WOW 3mbps (i know it sounds no big deal to 10mbps, but still!) now and i can connect my baio & tyty (my itouch from my love as Vday gift, and i decided to name it tyty i don't know why. a moment of impulse?) wirelessly WITHOUT committing to "stealing"crimes. *shhhh!*
so now i can watch heroes FULL SCREEN on my desktop, while lying "bonelessly" on my comfortable bed on a RAINY weather, and blog, surf net and MSN etc on my baio.
it's, quote sherilyn, "TEH SHIOK"!
- Went to babysit Kynan yesterday. And I have found a lifetime job back-up in times of retrenchment and unemployment.
that is, BABYSIT KYNAN @ $5/hour! hahaha. cool huh. so now i don't have to worry about being jobless anymore.
- Working tomorrow! I've never been THIS psyched about working, but tomorrow I'm getting my official Sony Tee! yes, the BLACK Professional-looking kind with "Sony" sewn on it in white threads, not the crappy "VAIOth Anniversary" tees in weird colours!
- starting my FIRST online spree here
- starting an online shop with xiuyi (we're still discussing the name! we're failures at discussion cuz we always end up digressing.)

there!

i'm a

blessed, blest, blissful, blithe, can't complain, captivated, cheerful, chipper, chirpy, content, contented, convivial, delighted, ecstatic, elated, exultant, flying high, gay, glad, gleeful, gratified, hopped up, intoxicated, jolly, joyful, joyous, jubilant, laughing, light, lively, looking good, merry, mirthful, overjoyed, peaceful, peppy, perky, playful, pleasant, pleased, satisfied, sparkling, sunny, thrilled, tickled, tickled pink, up, upbeat

GIRL.

where's the originality

故事大纲：
一间四房式组屋的铁门上，挂着一个生锈的招牌，写着“太极招生，电话号XXXXXXXX ”。这块招牌属于“行云太极门”所有。

掌门人张秋月，外号“LUCKY”。她是个寡妇， 年轻结婚，年轻生子，年轻守寡。自从丈夫死后，她便开始颓 废，不思上进，人生没有目标，连对太极的教学工作也是做一天和尚，敲一天钟的态度。她最大的乐趣是赌博，堪称武林一朵“赌”花。

Lucky的弟弟－张丰收，是一条大懒虫。丰收为人聪明，可是自小不爱读书，常利用小聪明作弊、逃学。长大了加入黑社会，替老大顶罪被抓去监牢关了5 年。他出狱后，以为老大会重用自己，可是他打架怕痛，开片怕死，连当大耳窿收帐的工作也做不好，最后被老大一脚踹出黑社会。丰收相信相士所说，自己有当老 板的命，所以不肯正正经经去找一份工，反而窝在家里等运到。

Lucky的女儿－方丽香，天生有浓烈的狐臭，小名叫香香，其实很多人都怕了她的体臭！不仅让她感到自卑，也让她每份工都做不长久，时时被老板炒鱿鱼。

Lucky和前夫的妹妹莺莺在牛车水合开了一家美容用品专卖店，店名叫“贵妃”。莺莺泼辣、尖酸、小气又精明，对Lucky的懒散好赌感到不满。

莺莺和在隔壁的对手“公主美容商店”的老板金发是水火不容的死对头。金发自称当过服装设计师，自认打扮有品味，给人感觉娘娘腔，个性也跟女人一样小气计较，所以被莺莺在背后叫他“老sissy”！

其实金发很受女人欢迎，他有三个女朋友，免费来店里帮他当售货员，希望会让金发选中当老婆。莺莺对这“三朵花”又妒又羡，原来暗地里，莺莺暗恋着金发！因为得不到金发的青睐，莺莺喜欢和金发作对。

玫雅是丽香的好朋友，风趣、机智，年纪轻轻已当了高级餐厅Authentic Cuisine的主厨。私底下，她最喜欢钻研星座和西方魔法。玫雅担心丽香被人欺负，安排她到自己任职的餐厅工作，就近照顾她。丽香非常崇拜这位好朋友。

丽香还有一位偶像。他就是名厨马俊家－JK MA，JK的书迷都昵称他为“小马哥”。少女情怀总是诗，丽香最喜欢看J.K写的烹饪散文，总会在钱被妈妈和舅舅坑走之前，存一点在玫雅那里，以便当小马哥的新书一面市，她就能立刻购买得到。

丽香原本醉心J.K是个有学识有格调的美男子，不过相处下来，她发现偶像也有缺点：例如他追求完美接近挑剔，说话虽幽默但带着尖酸，高大却又弱不禁风。最让她伤心的是，小马哥接受不了她的狐臭，丽香每每无法靠近偶像的身边和他交谈。

不过，经过一轮相处之后，J.K感受到丽香是那么的善良，二人竟然成了哥儿们！JK却只当丽香是一个热情的崇拜者，丝毫没觉察丽香对他有深深的爱慕。他反 而对原本是冤家的玫雅感兴趣。可玫雅对男人和婚姻都有恐惧感，甚至有逃婚的记录，誓言不再谈恋爱。JK于是向丽香倾吐心声，甚至要求她帮忙拉红线！

丽香知道自己没机会，配不上小马哥，也觉得J.K和玫雅是天生一对，所以愿帮J.K追求到玫雅。因为太了解玫雅了，她帮J.K出点子来打动玫雅芳心，拼命制造机会，其实自己的内心有痛苦。可是为了让自己喜欢的男人和好友都得到幸福，多大的痛苦都忍了下来！

另一方面，金发也为情所困。原来，金发曾经暗恋LUCKY，眼看着当年清纯的秋月，变成现在这个人见人怕的赌鬼LUCKY，金发是又恨又怜！他假 借要LUCKY还他赌债，帮她安排密密麻麻的太极课，想把她拉离好赌的生活。可是LUCKY却因此认识了富豪林天明。天明把LUCKY带入一个上流社会的 境界。而金发也被莺莺的痴情感动，二人成了男女朋友。未几，他发现和莺莺并不适合，却甩不开她。归根结底，他关心的人始终是LUCKY。

而金发的妹妹Lisabelle,也是从小就暗恋着丰收。即使丰收坐过牢，还和一个风尘女子Cindy有了一个5岁的女儿，Lisabelle仍 是死心塌地，默默地支持着丰收。丰收利用Lisabelle对自己的痴情，借她的钱，让她当免费保姆，甚至在他开始研发一种美容新产品的时候，要 Lisabelle拿去试验在她的客户脸上，没想到这样却让Lisabelle惹上了官司！Lisabelle对丰收一句怨言也没有，让丰收觉得惭愧。

一个偶然的机会，丽香大显太极身手，神乎奇技的太极内功，让她声名大噪！连带“行云太极”的名声也不胫而走。突然间，许多人慕名而来。要向丽香学太极。丰收提议把掌门人的职位传给丽香。就这样，丽香当上了【行云太极门】的掌门人！

丽香一当上掌门，张家的衰运突然间就好像云雾般蒸发不见，好运频频传来，Lucky和天明准备人生的第二个春天，而丰收在Lisabelle的鼓励下，努力去开拓自己的事业。他用心去种植草药，研发出让人皮肤光滑的护肤品，还叫丽香帮他当代言人。

丰收决定和一路走来都对自己有恩的Lisabelle结婚，怎知道前度女友Cindy却在这时回来，要和丰收续前缘，新欢旧爱，正如何取舍时，而被金发抛弃的莺莺，教唆把秘方交给丰收的郑家后人，控告丰收偷窃秘方，向他索取巨额赔偿，丰收面临破产的危机…

LUCKY和天明开心行婚礼。谁知道，在婚礼的当天，车子发生意外，天明英年早逝，LUCKY再度成为寡妇…

而丽香，原本前途似锦的她，也因车祸，导致下半身瘫痪…

这一家三口，要如何度过他们生命中的危机呢？

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this synopsis of a TV serial is titled "My Lucky Charm" (情来运转) and was screened on Channel 8 on 6 Jan 2005.

sounds familiar?

it sounds exactly like the show playing now, titled "The Beautiful Scent" (美丽的气味).

i was discussing it with my parents that the storyline of "The Beautiful Scent" is EXACTLY like that of "My Lucky Charm", and we were all disgusted and disappointed with MediaCorp's recent productions.

After some Googling, i discovered that "The Beautiful Scent" is actually a Malaysia NTV7 and Singapore MediaCorp's cooperation and efforts to remake "My Lucky Charm".

Nevertheless, I still find it unacceptable to do an EXACT copy of the original. WHERE IS THE ORIGINALITY?

true that "Just in Singapore" is a recent original production by MediaCorp, but ironically, the title itself sounds vaguely similar to "Made in Singapore", which was once a hit in the local years ago. Albeit the fact that the storyline and plot is quite fresh and interesting, and the characters reflects true-blue Singaporeans to a certain extent, I can't help but wonder if it might be a bad influence to some.

and another show that is currently showing:

is an EXACT replica of

i've watched thrice years ago.

*sigh*

Good dramas are hard to find nowadays.

Where's the originality?

like.no.other. [edited]

Advertorial

since i'm chosen by Sony for the Nuffnang Advert, haha, i shall write something about it although i'm not obliged to do so. (I just feel LOYAL to Sony la.)

Digression: I seriously think Sony ought to employ me as their ambassador or something, I'm like working for them and then now (really) coincidentally "employed" to advertise their things on my blog. *shrugs*

Carmen the (future) Sony Ambassador.
muahahaha!
(ok, i've to apologise for the quality. the camera and the printer used to take this picture is Canon)

below are some interesting Sony Cybershot commercials I've found.
Check them out!

Interesting, aren't they?
Especially the first one, I find it hilarious.
I wonder what would happen if I get a T200. T300!! Would passers-by on the streets behave like that when I walk past them?


*SIGH!*
T200 T300, my DREAM camera. i SOOOO want to get it.
I wonder if the IT show has got nice good bargains. (:
because i checked out the Vaio website and it has got really attractive promotions like Virus claimed. I feel like checking out the IT show!
it's sleek, it has got nice design, nice colour, (shd i choose red or black??) although not as slim as it should be.
it has got 3.5" touch screen interface with many functions, and smile shutter, good optical zoom, nice macro function.
MY DREAM CAMERA!!!

and i've been wondering, why doesn't Sony do something like Apple?
since Apple is doing the ALL-White theme, and iPods are most compatible and easy-to-use on Macbooks and iMacs, Sony can actually combine all its brands to synchronise them to be compatible with each other. and Sony is so vibrant it can actually come up with matching colours for the gadgets!

IMAGINE...
a gorgeous red Bravia at home...



a blazing red Vaio on the move...

a beautiful red PSP to entertain you...

a sleek red Cybershot, ready when you are...
a brilliant red Ericsson for communications everywhere...

a vibrant red Walkman for enjoyable music...


wouldn't this be so cool?

can be sold as a package.
maybe can mix and match whichever bravia, whichever ericsson you want.. etc
and besides red can have other colours too! ((:
*sigh*
can't help it, i'm too brlliant.

In Verona

In Verona, the ancient great city
Bloomed a flower, the gentlest, the purest
With great actions, and courage, the surest
On the Church and her country brought honour

Magdalene of Canossa, hail to thee!
Glory and honour, praise to thee, Alma Verona
Sing with gladness, joyfully, a hymn of victory
To God give glory, to God give glory

this song kept creeping into my mind today.
it was a hymn song i sang in my primary school days.
visiting Kynan soon.

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