Sunday, December 31, 2006

so long, farewell, goodbye, sayonara, selamat jalan, zai jian, to 2006!

title adapted from Mr. Teo's favourite way of bidding goodbye to each maths chapter (:


monk's coming back tonight!!!
he was supposed to come home yesterday, but apparently, the flight was full so they had to wait till today...
cant wait to see him!!! (and the presents of course! hee..)
these few days have been really nice get-togethers for me! -beams-



firstly was Claire's birthday on 26th december!!! (:

Happy Birthday Clairey Dearest!

Me, Claire, Ying Xiu, Christina, Clarissa.

it's disgusting. it's hideous. it's grotesque.but,
we're lovin' it.

28th December 2006
watched Curse of the Golden Flower with mummy!!!
can you believe it? I WATCHED A MOVIE WITH MY M-U-M!
she's always complaining that movies are a waste of money, and the movie we ever watched together was "I Not Stupid".
just me and her.

29th December 2006
Visit to new Dunman's Campus at Mt.Senai with Xiu Yi, Doris, Rachel!!! (and Nita & Ying Tong too, although they weren't part of the plan.. haha.)
helped the juniors practice Long Teng for Orientation... (which was pretty disgusting)

My legs on Xiu Yi's legs, Doris's leg on my legs, Rachel's leg on Doris's leg.
ah ha ha.
this is what bored, crazy and deranged seniors do when they are utterly disgusted by the standards of juniors.
they find amusements amongst themselves!!

At Buona Vista MRT after lunch at a nearby hawker. Rachel managed to break down the machine!

30th December 2006

DHSCO GUANYUE BBQ!

yu bo saved a very unhappy and demoralised debbie because weicheng said her batch was the "biggest" aka oldest.
seniors: Yu Bo, Wei Xiong, Debbie, Colin, Cheryl, Joel, Giap Seng, Jieren, Stefanie, Pei Wen, Doris, Rachel, Justine, Kelvin, Me, Clara, Cephia, Hui Qi, Jing Mei, Ruth!
yeap. i guess that was all.

Guan Yue BBQ 2006

carn believe that we're actually not the "youngest" seniors now...
oh! and Benice, Sze Lang, Lin Li came after the "older seniors" (aka 20 and above) left for supper.
we played bridge. ah lang would never fail to crack any of us up.
"oh! you're attached?! can i download you?!"
this was one of the classics that i would always remember amongst all the other "Ah Lang Jokes".
at eleven, my dad came to fetch us home.
doris and i left, with teary eyes and tummy aches from all the laughing.
wait, we still haven't heard the player analysis from Benice!!! >.<

i hope i've something to look forward to tonight...
COUNTDOWN! (please! i hope i can go. haha.)

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

lovely surprise!

apart from the drilling and the crankiness and being so pissed off with listening to the drowning voices of the desperate housewives, today was an accomplished day!

clarissa messaged me around 4 to say that clairey was super sad because none of the nigus remembered her birthday!
only clarissa msged her.
chloe thought claire's still in m'sia.
christina, being the blur one, forgot(i think)
me, (wanted to do the "last min" greeting thingy i did on Jia Jia)
jia jia, well, still in M'sia!

so clarissa & i planned to surprise claire, somehow.
we dont know how.
so the entire planning began...
clarissa called chris while i called claire's mum to check if it's possible that we go to her house, and also to find out claire's whereabouts.
but surprise surprise!
claire's mum told us somebody is already at the house!!!
so who is this mysterious person???
she said it's a tall girl cooking pineapple rice (huh huh huh???)
and that this girl came last year too. (ding ding ding! last yr?!?!)
so i suspected it's Ying Xiu or Sophia.
i asked Clarissa to find out from Hui Ping and TADA!!!
indeed, it was Tan Ying Xiu!!!
so we proceeded with our plans, i bake brownies and we meet at Tanah Merah and surprise!!!

but stupid Tan Ying Xiu's phone had to go flat at this critical moment! (she's supposed to tell claire she cant make it to Orchard and den Claire's mum will call her to ask her to come home and eat!) so duh, obviously she cant make the call with a flat phone. cant use claire's house phone too, duh.
so I had to, instead, phone claire & tell her some bull story that i broke up with monk (choy!) and that i'm super duper sad now i need to talk to her desperately.
but you know, once claire's out, she doesn't want to return home. (and vice versa)
so instead of asking me to meet at her house, she suggested anywhere anyplace in Singapore, BUT HER HOUSE.
so in the end, i had to tell her i just met him at TM, and i'm super sad now i cant go anywhere but her house (since i'm already on the train and at tanah merah station. i even had to crap that i didn't feel like going orchard or anywhere else that she suggested cuz it's too "happy", "noisy" and "festive" )
i even had to pretend to cry to force her to come home.
but oh wells, my acting skills was damn good. she chiong-ed home.
and we helped Ying Xiu prepare the pineapple rice and the tons of things she hasn't got ready yet.

den when Claire was reaching home, i waited for her in the living room.
and i had to pretend to be crying melancholy.
and when she came, i just had to hug her and pretend to sob cuz i was so afraid my expression would give way.
my job was to bring her to her room so that the rest (christina who joined us later, clarissa & ying xiu) can bring the food out and surprise her.
but HUNGRY and GREEDY claire headed straight for the kitchen when i said i wanted to talk in her room, claiming that she wants to get me a drink. so nice of her! (but she later admitted that she also wanted to get an apple to eat! that's why she was so insistent when i told her NO NEED WATER!!! )

DENG DENG DENG!
big EXPOSÉ.
but not too bad cuz claire got the shock of her life.
seeing THREE friends in her kitchen instead of her maid and the kitchen IN A MESS she had never ever seen before.
(((:

it was such a nice get-together session we had!
4 nigus + yingxiu (((:
what a lovely surprise!
i'll upload the pictures later cuz the connection is so damn SLOW.
this is super nice of claire!!!
she wanted to cheer me up and she bought me Mrs. Fields cookies (((:
i'm so touched!!!


having known you for five years now claire, i really dont know what to say...
my life would be so imperfect without you, throughout my four years in Dunman.
always the crazy girl doing the crazy things with me. be it the S.H.E, the TST, the "Siao" Huas, the e5n.netz or the nigus, you've always been a part of my life. and not to mention, a part of me. i cannot imagine my life without you. it's simply inconceivable. we've been there for each other since so long! and although we weren't always so close every minute and every second of our lives, our hearts were still strung together by the strong bond we've created since sec 1. (i'm rather thankful for gsh for that matter you know. haha. for i somehow feel that she helped in strengthening our friendship and trust..)
i'm so thankful for a friend like you.
someone i can trust so wholeheartedly.
and you never fail to surprise me and touch me, so deeply.
like the time you cried for me (outside school hall) when i scored so badly for prelims and how you were, so worried for me.
and this time, you were so concerned, albeit it's your birthday! (and of course, the story wasn't true at all) you were so spontaneously willing to share your birthday time, listening to my woes and sad love story.. and even so thoughtful to buy me cookies! (with "therapeautical chocolates" in it. haha.)
i just want to say Happy Seventeenth Birthday,Claire!
and i really hope we'd be friends for as long as we can be...



new friends are silver, old friends are gold.
but you;
you are a jewel to me.
encrusted on my heart (:


hey you! that's it! that's the bombshell!!!

pitter patter and drilling

pitter patter
pitter patter
pitter patter
pitter patter
"gazzzzzzzzzznnnnnnnggggg"
"gazzzzzzzzzznnnnnnnggggg"
"gazzzzzzzzzznnnnnnnggggg"
"gazzzzzzzzzznnnnnnnggggg"

these were what awoke me today.
the sound of consistent rain, and not to mention, consistent drilling!

those bloody idiots.
CAN THEY GET DONE WITH THE DRILLING ONCE AND FOR ALL?
i mean, i understand the new neighbour upstairs is also doing the same thing we did; knock off the wall and converting squeezy 3rooms into spacious 2rooms.and also the stupid storeroom.
but, it's getting annoying.
like when i thought the drilling is ONCE AND FOR ALL OVER, and happily click the "play" button, resuming my consistently paused Desperate Housewives, they start drilling again.
they are just so close to toeing the line. MY LINE.

and with weather like that, i cant even escape from home to find haven.
even blasting music that blares my eardrums on the streets out there are better than the consistent drilling.

rain rain go away, come again another day.
little children wants to play.
for heaven's sake. it's CHRISTMAS! it's supposed to snow! not rain!
i'd rather have a sunny christmas than one so blue.

Monday, December 25, 2006

santa can you hear me?

Merry Merry X'mas everyone!!! (:
some peeektures to share
from the LTC (like wow, they are SO efficient. the camp was a MONTH ago. not alot of pictures what, take so long to upload?)

basically this is the "birdhouses" we sleep in. downstairs=belongings and upstairs=sleeping.
can hold about, 20 girls?

before we set off for our Sea Expedition, aka five bloody hours of Kayaking. that's sylvia smiling away happily and hui yen helping her with the paddles. can you spot me? (so sian-ed)

aint this a pretty picture of our kayaks all ready to set off???

Camelot rafting and listening for instructions (: can you spot me??? *hint: pink cap*

THAT, was our lunch kay. few pathetic pieces of biscuits with umm, raisins embedded in it? and passed along i-dont-know-how-many-hands. (pink cap unglam me again)

Camelot kena scolding for being behind time. basically, according to the teachers, we spent more time floating than kayaking. WA LAO. but Camelot was the worst sun burnt sub-camp with people suffering from near 2nd degree burns! the burns actually distracted us from the five hours kayaking muscles overload.

a very nice and pretty picture of ms choong!!! but you definitely cannot imagine her in classes when you see this sweet smiling picture of her... -shudders-

that's Shao Jie with Bedivere flag!!! all set and ready for our Urban Trek! civilization!!! here we come!!! you cannot imagine how excited we were, seeing civilization again. it's the first camp i've been to that i wanted it to end so badly by the end of 2nd day, that i was near home sick. we were thrilled even by the sight of Breadtalk k.

Jia Ying being bedazzled by the sudden bright light after being blindfolded for so long, and Xu Yuan still being blindfolded...

Bedivere!!!
From left: Shara(holding the flag), Ming Xian, Shao Jie, Sheng Xiang, Sylvia (laughing away), Hui Yen, Facilitator Minglin (in white), Ivan (twist), Facilitator Raymond (in red), Jamie, Yi Fang, Xu Yuan, Facilitator Jun Kai (in white), me (!!!), Jia Ying.

Bedivere presenting.... Sylvia, the gung ho girl! "Baby 不要在哭泣... ..."

Facilitators and some teachers.

Facilitators and Teachers.

Last photo of the finale night. Bedi the Chao Tah! (ole ole ah ah...)


i wonder if monk is having a white christmas in Japan?
hmmm.. wishlist, someone asks?
but i doubt i'll come up with one yet.
cuz i dont think many would get me any christmas present except family.
one will be up soon though, cuz three months from now, YOU know what's coming... *winks*

Sunday, December 24, 2006

the bored.

the father and the daughter went sea-swimming today! (:
haven't went sea-swimming for the longest time.
i used to go almost every week when i was much younger as the father is a fan of sea-swimmming, being brought up at the grandfather's kampong at ipoh,perak :D
so much more tiring, swimming in the sea than the pool.
we didn't even like, do laps. just trying to keep our balance and float and swimming around battling with the waves was enough to make me take a nap when i was back home.
(people who know me knows i rarely take naps)
aye. father nature (the sea is hereby mentioned as father nature cuz i think mother nature sounds "earthy" and sea is more "ferocious" at times so is of course the male. haha!) seemed to be tossing me around.
several times i was uncontrollably washed unto the shore and dragged back into the sea and then washed ashore and dragged back again. ultra difficult to find my balance.
the easiest way? cling unto the father. hee.
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wow. 84. pretty cool! quite a good age to die cuz i wont be too old to move about and hopefully i wont be bothered by any ailments >.<



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yay. i'm smart!!!(((:

i wonder how is the monk?

shopping vs reading

bought "Tuesdays with Morrie" and "The five people you meet in Heaven" (!!!!!)
i'm so happy.
like claire, i need a more cultured and refined life. haha.
instead of shopping all DAY long. i havent been reading for a HELL LONG TIME!!!
(except harry potter 1-4 at the beginnin of hols...)
Da Ge's sponsoring more books!
so i'm getting the new book "One More Day" by Mitch Albom and the ENTIRE Shopaholic Series by Sophie Kinsella and the ENTIRE "Why Men... Why Women..." series by Allan and Babara Pease.
I cannot stand going to the library and borrow cuz they are ALWAYS on loan.
and i'd like to re-read them so might as well buy them. (:


that reminds me, i still have "Wuthering Heights" to read. bought it long ago for only a few bucks.
and i'd like to re-read "Red Sky in the Morning" too. it's a good literature.
oh yarh. and my "天厨记"!!! (sec 4 june hols' 阅读报告) i stopped at book 3. bahhh. just a mile more to the ending. so now i think i'll re-read it again!
yay.

carmen promises to read EVERYTHING!
so addicted to shopping now...
even WINDOW shopping... (but i hate it sometimes cuz i cant buy anything)
bought 2 tops that says "Saw it Wanted it Threw a tantrum and Got it" aha. so like me.
and another that says "they say that money talks but mine just says GOODBYE" yeap. exactly. >.<

shopping vs reading.
i wonder which will triumph which now. the latter sure wins in the past. but now, i'm not so sure! hehs.
the monk is gone... to japan. with his family. he was gone this morning :(
the nun is missing the monk already.
just hope that he'll bring back loads of gifts for me as promised!

Saturday, December 23, 2006

The Long Awaited Wedding

Had initially wanted to squeeze everything into an ultimate long post.
but cuz i'm using firefox now, it's very troublesome. (for those who blogs, when the photos are uploaded, they appear right at the top of the text box. only in IE can i conveniently drag it to wherever i want, but with firefox, i have to drag and drop and drag and drop as the stupid text box wont scroll down. bahhh.)
so, i couldn't take it no more and hence another post for the wedding! (:

Mariott Hotel
wedding of cousin desmond and chu san
(:
Me and Mummy at the cocktail holding area's X'mas tree (:
the lady on the right's my cousin beng's new girlfriend.

pretty x'mas tree~my lovely flower girl niece, Rachel! (i'm her 姑姑! sounds so old.. :( cuz her dad, not only is my cousin but also my god brother..) nephew keith, rachel's brother, is hiding behind her.
haha. on the right the tall girl in spagh dress is cousin zhiyong's girlfriend (!!!) they're both DOCTORS. -gasps- the other one who's a little more on the plus size side is cousin alice.
and the group standin near the x'mas tree are my cousins but i cant tell who's who.

the three pretty pretty flower girls (:

TADA! my aunt cum godmother. (姨妈妈) so happy another son of hers is married le. 2 down. 2 more to go! hahaha.
cousin desmond & my new chu san sister-in-law. (supposed to be cousin-in-law i think but i'm godsis ma!) couldn't catch a close up cuz when they were walkin down the aisle this stupid waiter walked passed when i had this perfect chance of capturing both of them! *curse*my mum was held in suspense when my da ge requested for an additional seat. (!!!) bugged me so many times if i know who he's bringing.. she suspects i was lying when i said i didn't know. "how can da ge not tell you! u both are so close!"
so, this is why this wedding is "long awaited". both by my 姨妈妈 and my 妈妈!hahaha.
picture of my da ge & his new girlfriend, serene (:
okay, this picture doesn't do her justice cuz she's really rather pretty in real life.sweet too! the lighting was bad for photos too. i didn't want to show the one with flash cuz she blinked.


super tired after the wedding cuz of the chain of events. chalet plus early mornin tea ceremony plus late night wedding dinner. >.<
the heels were killing me too.

PIC - a - boo

busy busy, dizzy~
a whirl of events have passed before i had the time to blog =P

20th December 2006, wednesday
the monk and the nun went for lunch and den to the zoo!!!
but, sad to say, when we reached there, it was showering. bahhh.
rested at the KFC until the showers reduced to light drizzle.
and you know what?
we went to toilet and came out to find that the ticket booth was C-L-O-S-E-D.
and we saw that they close the booth at 1730, and you know what time was it???
1735.

Mandai Zoo!!!!! (why didn't you wait for me???)


utter disappointment and downright depression is an understatement.
especially when i was looking forward to this trip to the Zoo for a hell long time.
the nun threw a small tantrum which involved pouting and ignoring the monk. >.<


Bye Mandai Zoo :(
Hello Night Safari!

The ULU MOUNTAIN monk.

"Welcome"

true enough, i was so freaked out by the darkness and the eerieness, i just felt like leaving the place immediately when the sky turned dark. clawing onto the monk like i was a koala bear on a tree trunk and i'm sure his shirt expanded after the excursion. i kept thinking that some wolf or bane or leopard or whatever would come pouncing on us out of the sudden from the forest on the sides of the pathway. this thought is hell scary enough without the darkness engulfing us as the stupid lamps aren't of much help lighting the paths; plus the constant buzzing and humming and whatever of insects; and birds swooping over your head once in a while scaring the wits out of you; plus occasion howling from the wolfs.
and the dozen mosquitoes does help alot thanks, in draining more blood out of my skin. :(
like the blood drained from my face isn't enough already, they had to drain more from my legs!
i couldn't tahan anymore and when we reached the tram station (finally), we bought tickets and took the tram.

"Boohoo! I got bitten by a dozen mosquitoes!!!"
-itchy itchy scratchy scratchy-

the photo taking session later did help forget the horrors of the Night Safari though.


but what happened after the Night Safari..
sighs. another disappointing but maluating event.
bahhhh humbug.
but i wasn't as disappointed as the zoo incident. haha.
supper at Clarke Quay!

what can i say?
MY CAMERA COULD CAPTURE SMOKE!!!!
omhmc.
uber tired. reached our chalet at like, 330am?
we only slept at 5am.
woke up at 10 the next day and we went to Escape Theme Park!!! (:

21 December 2006, thursday
first up, was Go Kart (Advance Track)

followed by Pirate Ship! (i love the feeling of losing my stomach! ha.)

say cheese! we took pictures while queuing.

up next was Rainbow!

boohoo. hey! at least i meet the height limit kay!

and then Wall's i-dont-know-what. yay. i challenged the thing i dared not challenge in the past! (:
-nauseated- (the lack of sleep makes taking giddy rides a 100 times worse than you take it when you have all the sleep you need)

den we went for Wet & Wild! (:
and den Bumper Boat.
poor me was cornered by the monk and a bunch of other kids.
the feeling of "寡不敌众" rooted in me that moment.
the station master even said "Aiyo, so wet, you dont need bathe already. Just go home larh."
:(((
our last station was the Haunted House.
it was rather stupid as there was only ONE "real" ghost being (aka a person impersonating a ghost)
as there were only two of us, we went in along with 3 SN girls behind us.
like, OMG.
one of the girls actually cried when we "escaped" from the Haunted House.
and the girl that cried was behind me all the way.
she left some abrasions on my right shoulder from clawing and digging her nails all the way in the Haunted House. :(((
and though i wasn't really afraid, i dug into the monk's arm cuz she was holding on to me so hard it hurts.

Our Mini BBQ session:
the monk BBQ-ingthe nun BBQ-ing (yuck, can see my UGLY tan line from LTC. ugh.)Chicken on Fire!BBQ~
food!!! -drools-

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Happy Six Months!!! (:

The Monk got for The Nun:
AHH! The Desperate Housewives that i've been craving for!!!
(I only mentioned it in a passing while watching season 2 that i've missed so much of season 1, i dont understand a thing.)
The Charmed!!!! What more could get me going than Charmed?!?!!! (anyone who knows me knows i'm a charmed freak. now i bet xiuyi would love this piece of news. haha.)
the power of three will set me free!!!

The Monk made me an oreo cheesecake too!!! and a card (:
(it's too sour) but i still loved it. i like the base (:
sometimes it tastes nice la, and it's unique.
anyway, it's his first attempt! i'm looking forward to the next one! =)


The Nun got for The Monk:
coupled converse shoes!!!
they were actually school shoes but i painted them.. and added some glittered designs..
and signed our names. (:
a Puma bag from Bugis St.
and a belt from Topshop.
and a handmade card (: sweet.

Friday, December 22, 2006

enjoy 慰劳会 people (:


uber tired. shall update about the past few days soon with a long post :)

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

M.I.A

missing in action
=P

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Hundredth Post

TADA!!!
this is proud to say, my grand HUNDREDTH POST!!!
-grins widely-
aye. not bad as i started this blog like, March? aha.. i know i know. i blog less than i used to but hey! i think i'm getting better! lol.


A song i grabbed from monk's blog (click if you all havent visited! haha.)
and it kinda links to what happened yesterday... :(((



Child by Freddie Aguilar:
When you were born into this world
Your mom and dad saw a dream fulfilled
Dream come true
The answer to their prayers
You were to them a special child
Gave 'em joy every time you smiled
Each time you cried
They're at your side to care
Child, you don't know
You'll never know how far they'd go
To give you all their love can give
To see you through and
God it's true
They'd die for you, if they must, to see you here
How many seasons came and went
So many years have now been spent
For time ran fast
And now at last you're strong
Now what has gotten over you
You seem to hate your parents too
Do speak out your mind
Why do you find them wrong
Child you don't know
You'll never know how far they'd go
To give you all their love can give
To see you through and God it's true
They'd die for you, if they must, to see you near
And now your path has gone astray
Child you ain't sure what to do or say You're so alone
No friends are on your side
And child you now break down in tears
Let them drive away your fears
Where must you go
Their arms stay open wide
Child you don't know
You'll never know how far they'd go
To give you all their love can give
To see you through
And God it's true
They'd die for you, if they must, to see you here
Child you don't know
You'll never know how far they'd go
To give you all their love can give
To see you through and God it's true
They'd die for you, if they must, to see you here


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to sum up my day.. it's good. it's GOOD.(like how Jim Carrey does it in Bruce Almighty)
B-E-A-UTIFUL day, although it was raining..
spent the day with my dad since 11 till 5, watching TV and eating our favourite Korean Shin Ramen (((((:
it's good to spend some quality time with your dad, especially all you do nowadays is shop with your mum =X
so after the Star Awards repeat ended (i was in Malacca when it showed last Sun), i met up with my Little Aunt and went shopping with her!!!

Oh, my after-thoughts after watching the Star Awards. Mark Lee's chinese SUCKS. big time. he actually read the name of the award presenter, Tino Bao's name wrongly. It's supposed to be "Bao Xiao Bo" and he read it as "Bao Xiao Bai" and he actually repeated it so many times!!! such a disgrace to Singapore in such "international event", i mean, they are, after all, from overseas..

and he kept doing all the emcee job while Pei Fen was obviously a much better emcee. whenever he forgets names of the artistes, she would react quickly by reading their names. and what kind of stupid questions he asks, like "what are you here for?" den for those who are plainly there for the event would be so embarrassed what, like Zoe Tay, she said she's just here to watch the event, and she's MediaCorp's Ah Jie somemore! so malu larh! stupid question from a stupid emcee. and he keeps saying and doing the wrong things, diction and pronunciation is horrible..

even when he got the award for Top 10, i think he totally does not deserves it cuz he said something like, when he saw he wasn't leadin in the Top 10 for the past few weeks, he asked his brothers from overseas to call and blah. (so obviously he doesn't deserves it cuz it's plain cheating.) i think so many others would have deserved it.

and the Huang Yi Liang is just plain bonkers. and my dad and i both agree that their speeches are all so BLEH with a few occasional good ones, like the newscaster Dong Su Hua's. I think hers was good, professional and classy. If everyone spoke of her standards then the Star Awards would be so much more classy. (of course must minus those crazy ones and really lengthy ones) not like some, no standards award show. pui. they got really BAD plannin for this one.



anyway, shopping at Orchard really perked me up especially after yesterday's episode and the stupid anti-tetanus shot that became so painful i couldn't sleep last night. every toss and turn i make was a horrid painful experience. my arm was practically useless cuz i cant move it above the elbow or the pain would intensify.
now, it's so much better and bearable! and is also a comfort for the $30 consultation fee that never got reimbursed... and also some shopping fee on friday :(

basically, we bought biscuits for the grand-nieces and grand-nephews, who are my nieces and nephews. kinda complicated? hahaha..
and went for dinner!!! at Crystal Jade. wooo.
my aunt was certainly in a spending mood cuz she got her bonus already!
she bought me, for X'mas...
` the same biscuit for me but mine's chocolate coated! last box! haha. special treat! cuz i'm NIECE what, they're GRAND-NIECE and GRAND-NEPHEWS leh. one grade higher! muahaha.
` Dove Amicelli
` a necklace from Accessorize (gee. i'm becoming an Accessorize freak already! cant take my eyes off their pretty accessories...)
` a pair of black patent slip-ons with heels from m)phosis!



isn't it beautiful?!
-beams-
anyway, can someone PUH-LEASE!!!
GET ME THE WHITE ONE SIZE FOUR TOO FROM TAKA'S M)PHOSIS?!?!
pretty pretty please?!
calling for all who owes me a Birthday Present!!!
i was really TORN between both.
and in the end i did those close-eyes-pick-one trick and painfully left the white one behind...
-sobs sobs-
my pocket is really awfully burnt, even worse than the CK Tang's rooftop that you'll see later on in this post...
please please please. this is my earnest plea!
that YOU! and YOU! and YOU out there who owes me a Birthday present!
get yourself down to TAKA and get the heels for me! please! hurry!
cuz m)phosis's footwear sells out so soon.
especially small sizes like mine :(
and i havent seen a pair anywhere in any other m)phosis outlets lately...
so hurry! get mine today! while stocks last!
tsk.
dont bother to give me a surprise just PLEASE TELL ME you're getting that for me i'll die happy.
hahaha.


hmph. my mum just entered the room and say i cant buy anymore things le,cuz i've already bought alot. hmph. NO WAY! =P
not as if she reimburses me. bleh.
oh. and a small little episode when we were about to take the NS-train home.
while headin for the MRT, we saw CK Tangs on fire!!!
well, not the entire building, but the famous green roof top.
yup.


and of course, the brave firemen were there and all, and of course the fire was put out larh.
but you know, being Singaporeans, who were never exposed to such things often, i think there were at least about a few hundreds, with us amongst them, that were watching the "show" from opposite outisde Wisma, near the Orchard Mrt.


this was a photo taken by my uber lousy phone with ZERO megapixels. (hahaha) the circled part was of course, the FIRE!



this was the flame that re-lighted after the fire "extinguished". the fire was obviously not extinguished, and smoke continued drifting...

my aunt called my 2nd Aunt, who's son is having a wedding dinner at Mariott Hotel this coming Fri. and coincidentally, my cousin-in-law to be (aka the bride) was at CK Tangs!!! hahaha. so he was so anxious he went "okay okay, i'll call her!" and hung up. awww.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

记得要忘记忘记

记得要忘记忘记
我提醒自己
我承认我还是会爱着你
但我将永不再触碰这记忆
记得要忘记忘记

i dont know how many times i've been hurt already.
sometimes, i'm so oblivious and negligent towards all these, i realised i've been numbed already.
always succumbing to your whims and fancies, always giving in.
i wonder how long would it take, for you to notice, the pains and the scars you've given me.
no no, not physically, but in the heart.
time and again, this heart has been shattered and miraculously healed by crying alone in the room, thinking of all the things i've long wanted to say to you.
but this little heart could never muster up enough courage, nor bear to see you hurt.
i dont want a fight.
i dont want to quarrell.
i just want to talk, to bare my heartfelt feelings to you.
would you listen?

yes. i want to forget what has happened.
i want to pen it down somewhere.
maybe it'll help me forget, so i'll never remember until i come across this post.
it's better than bottling everything in this tiny heart.
whereby happy feelings is what it deserves...
记得要忘记忘记...

Friday, December 15, 2006

a misfortune day.

today, aha! i woke up at 930 thanks to my scatterbrained mum...
she woke me up through my (sad to say) corridor-faced window, to open the door for her cuz she forgot her keys..
and when she entered, she actually also forgot her little pouch which normally contains coins and some cash and her EZ-link card.

after more lazing around in bed tryin to get back to sleep, i surrendered and went to wash up, while my mum left the house to get her hair done.
watched Bruce Almighty to waste time away till 11, and den i showered and dressed up and got ready to leave.
when i reached downstairs, i met my mum! and so we left for Ikea together.
the new Ikea @ Tampines is rather cool. and i think it's kinda bigger than the one at Queenstown area.

the place was freezing, and when we left, the sun outside was scorching. but what the hell, while the sunny sunshine was killing us with the heat, it was rainin too! and on the tarred-road, the rain started evaporatin so the effect looked as though the roads were "smoking"!
cool. (:

went Bugis after that while my mum went home.
bought my pretty accessories! ((((((((((: (to show how happy i am! haha)
and my pocket like, burnt a really big hole. cuz the accessories alone cost a whooping total of $99.40!!! -flabberghasted now that i totalled the sum-

somemore shopping but i cant divulge what i bought. hehs. (:
so total i spent like, $183.5?!?!
oh my god. now that i did the maths... I NEED REIMBURSEMENT.
seriously.

chionged home on 133.
and did i mention how bloody irritating people are, with loud ringtones on the bus???
gosh, for heaven's sake, can commuters please be CONSIDERATE when they are using their electronic devices?
people may be tired from work, or like me, after a whole day of shopping.
physically and mentally exhausted.
the long journey home on the bus or MRT is actually some time they can REST.
but how can they when irritants like you all keep having your LOUD RINGTONES BLARING INTO THEIR EARS EVERY FIVE BLOODY SECONDS EVERY TIME YOU HAVE AN INCOMING MESSAGE?!!!
for heaven's sake, turn in lower or even to silent mode if you jolly well know you're receiving a msg every 5 seconds or a call every 1 minute.
BAH.
inconsiderate people.
it's not only to commuters that wants to rest know.
even those that are energetic and wide awake find it irritating.

there was one bloody guy who had his phone in his back pocket and when his phone rings (every 5 seconds), the entire bus can hear it. -literally.
and it's so irritating cuz it was blaring into my ears. and they are all messages but the ringtone is bloody long.
and he always waits till the freaking long ringtone ends before he reacts and takes the phone out of his pocket. (as though you cant touch the phone when it's ringing)
ANNOYING.
I DONT CARE YOURS HAS 64 or 128 or 256 or what-have-you polyphonic ringtones but just SHUT IT UP OK?
such person should be thrown off the bus.


anyway, i chionged home, dropped my shopping stuffs.
den chionged to the Serangoon Interchange to meet Xiuyi.
since, (sadly) 0612 gatherin has been cancelled due to attendance problem, i asked xiuyi out for dinner to do some catching up! (:
we headed for chomp chomp!!!
ordered carrot cake and the must-have BBQ-ed Stingray with loads of chilli! yum.
and when we were about to start, i was sliding the plastic cover out so that i could use the chopsticks and tada!!!
the splinter got into my thumb. (what the hell)
it hurt like shit.
it was about 2cm long.
and while trying to tug it out, we reduced it to about 1.8cm.
so the remaining splinter that's stickin out was only about 0.3cm long.
afraid that we'll break it further, and the remainin 1.5cm long splinter will be stuck inside, we left it alone and continued with our dinner.

after dinner, we headed for a clinic opposite chomp chomp.
the receptionist was amused how the splinter got in.
so was the doc. =X
the doctor is really psychotic.
he said "wah. it's shallow but deep. nevermind, i'll pluck the splinter out for you"
i said "huh, what if it gets stuck?"
he replied, "if it get stucks den no choice, i'll have to cut the wound up and take out for you"
me: o_O -scared scared- "huh, but i scared pain leh. cuz when we were trying to pluck it out just now, it felt like it's cutting into the flesh.. very painful."
he said, "i'll apply some anticeptic cream for you then. it'll numb the pain."
so after the anticeptic gel application, the doc went to get his tools : tweezers, scapel, gauzes and i dont think there's anything else...

he examined my wound and gently tugged the splinter..
"just closed your eyes and clench your teeth and it'll be out very soon."
i did, and thought, "oh no. what if it hurts like shit, den if i dont look at it, my reaction will be damn big den the splinter break how?!!!!" so i opened my eyes.
when he tugged, i thought, "what the hell. what bloody anticeptic cream is that. it only stopped the stinging but i can still feel the splinter cutting my flesh!!!" and i winced, "ahhh."
he tugged a few more times, and then, with one more final and decisive tug, he pulled the splinter out. piercing pain in my thumb, and i winced once more "AWWWW."

he started examinin my wound again, and he scraped and poked with the tweezers, but there was no blood. and he said "hmm. no blood leh."
i asked, "so is that good or bad?"
he said, "can be good or bad... ..." and continued "i think you might get an infection, plus the chopsticks arent very clean.. you want an anti-tetanus shot?"
"i'll give you an anti-tetanus shot"
me: =X "huh... dont want larh. i dont want injection.. very pain."
he said, "you dont take the jab later you got infection then you die know!"
and after busyin around, he cleaned my wound with some alcoholic stuffs and he also cleaned my arm.
den he frightened me to death with this big fat syringe. (cuz normally those injection syringe quite small one ma. his is like those 5-10ml looking ones that we use in bio lab leh!!!)
oh my holy mother cow.

"huh...really injecting ah? very pain leh."
"not pain larh. just close your eyes and clench your teeth and it'll be over!"
i did. you should have seen my face, cuz it was all scrunched up.
and he literally jabbed me with the needle, like those shown on Zhou Xing Chi's (Stephen Chow's) movies you know, where they jab you hard.
i winced in my heart. but dared not flinch or even more than twitch cuz i remembered my dad once said that if i move or my muscles tense up, the needle might break and get stuck inside.
ARGH.

and he pulled the needle out, i immediately felt my arm go weak. :(
and during normal injections, they pull it out and press a cotton hard on the wound.
but he? he just let me bleed!!! until i informed him it's bleedin. den i think he sort of remembered to cover my wound.
when he wiped the wound clean, xiuyi bent over low to check the bleedin, and he said, "eh! dont go so near! later all the germs from your saliva, the air you breathe out gets in den she gets an infection ah, i dont know."
and he continued talkin but i did not understand (the above story was what i could remember as clear as possible cuz half the time i cannot make out what he's speaking. or rather, rattling) and he mentioned something like i need anti-biotics.

i said i dont need, but he insisted as he said there might be an infection.
i thought, "wah lao. trying to earn my money only..."
i declined. and he stared talking about how we should be mindful when we're eating.
he even told us a story that he once choked on a bamboo stick the size of a toothpick while eating noodles.
and it got stuck in his anus when he was shitting.
he asked his wife to pluck it out.
like, WAH. bull.
and he continued into some rather extremist talks about muslims & christians being stupid as they close their eyes and pray before they eat so people could easily poison them... and how they are heartless creatures,911 and blah blah blah.
p.s. the above mentioned does not represent my view or stand.

and we desperately just nodded, hoping he would finish crapping soon and let us go.
in the end, he still prescribed the antibiotics for me. :(
grrr. so in total, the consultation fee was $30!!!
all hails to almighty carmen. :(((((((((( (to show how sad i am)

proceeded to Ice 3 for dessert!


after much yakking and yakking, we left.
and thanks to xiuyi's brilliant idea/suggestion, and my insistence that we do something crazy, we took photo at the roundabout!!!

TADA! with traffic encircling the roundabout non-stop okay!!! utterly embarrassing but we were oblivious to it.our shadows on the grass of the little roundabout island! (:

xiuyi wong at chomp chomp!

carmen wong at chomp chomp!




hearts to hearts we'll always be.
best of friends, you and me.

i know you dont read my blog, but i still wanna say thanks to you for being by my side and reassuring me just now. i know you didn't want to take the seat like, few metres behind and away from me, (and risking getting killed by the psychotic, deranged doc who ranted that you're in his way a million times and that he'll knock you off like a bowling ball) cuz you wanted to be right there with me. love you!

Thursday, December 14, 2006

i've been such a good girl today. (minus the part that i woke up at 12:11) hehs.
i started packing my room again (i mean, sometimes i wonder why i have to pack and pack and pack so many times a year. haha. and i realised cuz i dont put things back to the way they are after i used it >.< and i dont throw rubbish away. =P)
yeap. and i packed my wardrobe (due to excessive shopping.. teehee)
and i helped my mum plucked the vege..
and i helped my mum buy groceries.
and i helped my mum cook.
and after dinner i did nothing but fish out rubbish from my room. haha.
aint i an angel today? -beams-


oooh. 0612 gatherin tmr at chomp chomp!
i think i shall introduce ice3 cafe to them!!!
i think they'll love it! (:
funny how my first 3 months class has had countless of gatherings already. and my current-cum-past-tense class, 0631, is only having our very first class activity now--class chalet.
and i'm not even bothering to go. neither is tiara nor anandhi.

0612!!!(much missed!)us at Plaza Singapura on 19th June

can you spot me?!

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Malacca Trip '06

haha. oops. i realized i hadn't update about my Malacca Trip on Sunday the 10th yet. gee.

well, since i dont know when, my family have been travelling to malacca almost once every year..
SHOPPING of course is the ultimate goal. (:
there was one year.. i dont know if it's 2004 or 2005, we went there with one luggage each.
as in, not suitcase luggage luggage, but those hand-carry luggage luggage.
and we returned back with SIX luggage. pow-wow.
and we spent like a thousand or two ringgit.
but this year's was DISAPPOINTING. and that's an understatement.

there wasnt anything much to buy and the stuffs were like, mediocre and no cheapo bargains that are really good. :(((
Mahkotas Parade is such a disappointment this year.
the only thing to celebrate is their Auntie Anne's is sold at Rm2.90!!! (approx. Sgd $1.30)
love my cinnamon sugar pretzel.
Singapore sells them at Sgd $2.30 larh! whoo. -spins-

anyway, from this trip, all i bought were:
a pair of kitten heels @ Rm19.90
Adobe Illustrator CS2 @ Rm5 (bwahaha. kinda dumb cuz i DONT KNOW how to use it)
essence oil burner + 20 tealights @ Rm10
that's all.
like, how pathetic. :(
as compared to nat, who really went for a much envied shopping spree. hmph.
neh-teh! i want go Sugai Wang & Times Square too~ -pouts-

anyway, the malacca trip was proudly organised by my mum and joined by her Karaoke kakis. hehs. and i became an exploited babysitter. this little brat here stuck to me the moment she saw me! so i was stuck baby sitting her for like... hmm. 16.5 hours. TADA! this sweet little girl i mentioned last time.. grand daughter of my mum's karaoke kaki.


look how nuts she went on the bus.
an angel at times that melts my heart.
a devil at times that makes me shun.
haha. but she's sweet larh.
look at what she drew for me! :

that's supposed to be a portrait of me. argh. i wish i could photoshop it. HA.
but it's so sweet!!! she even asked me how to spell "picture". hoho.
yarh. overall, that was my Malacca trip.
exhausting and un-fruitful. :(

oh! but Malacca has got a new shopping mall called "Malacca Megamall". i cant remember the malay name though. (funny. what's with the recent trend of big malls?)
anyway, unlike Mahkotas whereby the most expensive brands they have are Bonia, Sembonia, these ulu ulu un-heard of brands, the Megamall contains Mango, Esprit, Quicksilver, Nike, the usual high-end brands. and they also have another half of the mall that is like, Bugis Village.
so the entire Megamall is like a combination of Bugis Junction & Bugis Village.
tut.
tada! when we were exploring this new megamall, we saw a fountain there. upon my request! (:
awww. my parents look so sweet & loving (((:
though my pap's attempt to do the Smile + Open eyes BIG + 45dg failed terribly. he didnt even tuck in his chin!!!
>.<

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recent updates:
` downloaded WMP 11 (: coolios.
` downloaded IE7. it sucks. unreliable. every time i launch it, it hangs/doesnt responds. i have to be really lucky to have it budging.
` downloaded Firefox. ALL THANKS to the bloody IE7.
` i bought a new camera!!! the Panasonic Lumix FX-01!!! check it out!

(:(:(:
so pretty!
(took this to show off the big big screen)

see? as compared, my old camera is so boring and ungram. haha. (but it was free!haha)

the TINY PUNY screen! hates. can never see the details. :(
and it's only 3.2 megapixles!

funny thing; clairey neo poots actually said she kinda miss my old camera.
haha.now my new camera is here!!!
shall name it Cammy (:
Carmen's Cammy. -beams-

11:14pm.
tmd. my mother didn't strike lottery tonight! urgh. not even "beh sai" (consolation prize). boohoos. there goes all the pretty accessories from Accessorize. :((( DAMMIT.
where are you, God of Fortune?

p.s. oh my freaking gawd! since when is Heidi & Laura on PR pregnant?!?!
p.p.s. yay. michael won favourite designer! HA!

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

new friends are silver, old friends are gold.

Cubicle outing today!
met claire at Bugis. as usual, miss Sneo (Snail) was L.A.T.E.
i went around shopping before she reached.
we walked to... Miss Clarity Cafe! <3
oooh. this means i'm S-P-E-C-I-A-L to miss clairey sneo poots! ha. (of course. i'm so lovable!)


oh my. the place is really rah-rah for a quiet street! (:
and all the food looked so delicious!
so we ordered our main course and just babbled away. it's amazing how much we talked.
i just so love clairey! (exclaims: "I LOVE YOU CLAIRE!") cuz we can just talk and talk and talk non-stop, babbling and gossiping away. (like duh, we've been friends since sec 1! -beams- )
i just love the feeling of old friends. where you can crap and laugh and talk non-stop away to your hearts' content.

woo. anyway, the food was yummy-licious!
and as claire mentioned in her previous entry, NO GST! NO SERVICE CHARGE!
her main course along with bread & butter pudding dessert = $10.80
my main course along with my mud ooze dessert = $14.30
RAH. so cheap and worth EVERY CENT!

after a tummy-blowing lunch, we proceeded to national library cuz claire wants to pursue a cultured and refine life. (HA. i hope you succeed miss sneo.)
and den we proceeded to Bugis Village La-Vi-Va!
she told me she was intending to buy a pair of Black Shorts and a pair of Denim Shorts (but i didn't catch the denim part) so we started lookin around.
and being a poor lifeless creature for a century, i had to be a kind soul and bring her around cuz she hasn't been here for a very long time.
aha!! in the midst of hunting for her preys, i found a white skirt that i had wanted for the longest time!
and we continued shopping around. found claire's black shorts. and i too, took a liking to it. so i decided to get the brown one. while i was trying, claire hunted for her denim one!
so we both extorted and deprived our poor "flaky" and "silver pouch" of a grand total of... $49 and $46 bucks each! boohoos.
internal injury.
but we're both happy happy girls! and miss sneo kept screamin at me for buying stuffs when my ultimate duty was to be her tour guide and loyal companion. :(
oh wells. but at least i satisfied my long term goal while she satisfied her short term goal. HAHA!

after our crazy shopping, we were late for TWO grand hours.
so we took a train to Dhoby and met Jun Xiang & Wen Bin at City Hall!
after much much whining and protests and complaints from the lovely three,and some support from Wen Bin, Jun Xiang & Jun Kiat finally relented, so instead of trekking uphill to Paradiz Center for some stupid "bored" games, we compromised and went B&J's at Cathay Cineplex instead.
teehee! girl power (:

talked and gossipped and caught up with each other's life.
i really really felt so comfortable talkin to them.
and time just flew past like that.
there wasn't a moment of awkward.
there wasn't a moment of boredom.
i just loveeeee talkin to old friends like that.

new friends are silver, old friends are gold.




`let's rock on forever

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Face of a Faith, Nellie McKay

You are the light I follow
You are the face of a faith I love
Oh my darling believe in me
You are the hymn I cover
You are the king of an Indian dove
Oh my darling the fever in me
I wait for a while, I know
But I let it go, yes I let it go
My fear is gone
You are the hope I cherish
You are the care of a prayer I love
Oh my darling believe in me
In me
Believe in me

hell boring saturday i've never had in a long long time. so bored i started doing my old routine stuffs when i get bored at home and one of the thing is watch outdated movies i've never watched before...
started with "Yours, Mine & Hours" it's a very typical, cliched movie but yes, i still love it. It can be linked with "Cheaper by The Dozen". you know, 12 kids, but in this show, there's 18. HA.
up next i watched "Rumour Has It". it was a really crappy show, which all linked up with ONE MAN, Beau Burrough, sleeping with THREE WOMEN of the same family : the grandma, the mother and the daughter. HA. how is that possible? urgh. feels sick to think if i were to sleep with a man who slept before with my mum and my grandma. -nauseous-
but the song... this song played when Jennifer Aniston was taking the flight to look for her fiance. it really was melodious. it touched me deeply. too bad i dont know how to upload it but yeah, try to find the song. it's so soothing. calming. emotional yet in a subtle manner.
i dont know how to describe it. but i really like it.
it's really short though, sad to say :(

Friday, December 08, 2006

far see;flower red red. near see;flower got worm

today!
my mummy beloved went for her mahjong session. poor me was so bored i wanted to go Bras Bersah complex to shop (arts craft stuffs) alone for i havent been shopping alone for a very long time.
it's good to shop along sometimes.
gives you the peace. the tranquility. the chance to make decisions on you own instead of being swayed by comments of others.
haha. but my idiotic monk was so lovesick he couldnt eat, so i decided to dropby his house at Eunos to pay him a surprise visit. (:
teehee. lovelorn monk. (what an oxymoron.)

so after the (finally) successful (cuz i was so discreet this time) surprise visit, i loitered around at his home and he taught me how to use photoshop! (okay. this sounds weird. a guy teaching a girl how to use photoshop. maybe we switched roles?! haha. but his sister is a design student at NAFA, so duh!) we had lunch blah blah and den we proceeded to bugis (he wanted to tag along).
oops. i think i make him sound a little too "xiao nan ren", but wells, alright! i needed a companion too! >.< TADA! Soo Kee Jewellery's pretty pretty X'mas Tree!

dont i look cute? awww. =P

went for a quick round at Bugis Village and we went back to Bugis Junction...den o_O !!!

saw this place along the open space outside Bugis Junction, they were doing nailarts at $15!
how could i give it a miss! >.< (my newly painted red nails were chipping off already anyway)


me drying my base-coat in the dryer...


this is the colour-coat.

after the colour-coat dried. they would glaze the fingers with something that will glow under the UV-light. it's for the machine to detect your nails so they can print on it. there! see my nails glowing under the UV-rays?


my arm was sent into the machine! i was told strictly not to move (or even twitch, in my own opinion, else the print would be off), and den the machine would somehow paint your nails. i really dont know how cuz i dont feel a thing but the machine jerking like a printer. but they told me it's something like spray painting.


see? my nails detected by the machine and is translated onto computer... so we could tell which nail wasnt proper adjusted.


the preview of my nails with the prints i chose! (:

tada! my new manicure. okay. it really looks pretty and all from far but when you look at it closely, there are flaws everywhere:
the prints werent properly aligned;
some of the prints are smudged and really badly printed; (they re-did my left thumb and left little finger)
my left thumb was so ruined i am doin a new painting for it now;
they kp askin you not to move not to move, but i really didnt! maybe i cant control any muscle spasms but i swear i didnt move! yet the prints still came out a bit weird..
so the outcome is like "far see; flower red red. near see; flower got worm" hahaha.
a saying monkey chlo taught me! (in chinese though.. “远看花红红,近看花有虫”)

but overall, it was a rather fun experience.
the offer lasts till 31st december though!
yup. it's not a bad idea for those who have long and broad nails.. easier for the machine to detect and paint on it. i saw some others who have pretty nice ones done.
i think mine was a little too short and my poor little finger was too narrow to be exactly detected/painted. :(
and it's for those who have all the time in the world to idle! not recommendable for those who are in a rush. cuz although they told me it'll take 30mins, but the entire process took actually 1.5 hours. >.<

P.S. screw small feet discrimination! there was this really really nice pair of heels that i really liked but they only provided till size 36! THIRTY-SIX! how could they! how can they not provide 35! like hello?! Asian women's feet aren't as huge as those ang moh's know! you should provide like at least ONE or TWO PAIRS of smaller sizes! (that's what they normally do, dont they?) my mum and i are going nuttos recently as the shops are not selling enough footwear of our sizes!!! -hollers- and that sales girl! how dare she try force me to buy 36! it's loose larh! and she still claimed that i could stuff sponges or foams inside. fyi, if i do that, i might as well go around buying shoes that dont fit me?! might as well the entire world just produce ONE BIG SIZE so for those who have smaller feets they can just stuff foam in it?! and for those with bigger feets should maybe just go bind their feet until they are 3 inch big. hoho. can buy "san cun jin lian" already.

so.fed.up.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

my inferiority complex I

i've updated my blog! (:
as everyone can see... i've included photos in the "welcome" page of my blog, as well as a counter...
i dont really see a need for it larh. cuz i dont think my blog is so widely-read but oh wells, monk asked me to put it up, and so i put lor.
it's pretty interesting.
i had a hard time choosing one that i like and wouldn't deem as too childish and would last long.
it was tough, contemplating between two and i finally chose this one! it's created along the "ransom" theme and i think it's cute (:
up next is a neoprint!



taken quite long ago larh. 23rd november...
hahaha.
haiya. think you all keep seeing photos of me and my monk also see until sian le. >.<>.<>

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i read xiaxue's older posts yesterday.. (and this is the one that triggered my thoughts and emotions flowing...)
and i've thought about a lot of things...
i could understand how she exactly felt because I too, felt sick of being constantly compared to other fellow dunmanians..
not only does others(parents, friends, relatives, teachers, blablabla) compare myself to them, but I too, compares myself with them.
and at times, i feel really inferior.
i know i may seem bubbly, cheerful, optimistic, outgoing and blah, but yeah, there's just this teeny weeny part of me that has this inferior complex.
i remember, the day of releasing results, people cry because they got like, 9 instead of the 8 in prelims.
or that they start getting worried they cannot get into HC or TJ or VJ etc.
while me, i just cried because i got 14.
it was totally inconceivable for me to get a 14 when i got like, 27 for prelims.
i practically halved my score.

yeah. i understand how she feels when she says that she would top the class without much efforts or whatsoever. because it happened to me too.
i was a prefect.
i was the top scorer for almost every chinese test, aside from the PRCs.
i was at least top 20 in my primary school durin PSLE.
i was National's First in Bilingual Translation Competetion 2001.
tada! my history is a record!
but when i came to dunman, i was a nobody.

i think this is the theory with "big fish in a small pond and small fish in a big pond"
in my neighbourhood primary school, i was a big fish in a small pond.
but when i came to dunman, i was the latter.
nobody even scouted my talent when the Translation Competition was held again.
why? simply because the teachers' visions were clouded by so many other talents in the school.

my results were not bad in secondary 1 & 2..around average.

my result book.

my secondary one SA results slip.

my secondary two SA results slip

my secondary three CA results slip.

my results really deteriorate in secondary 3 onwards.
basically because Miss xxx sucked.
and also, i had to handle subjects that i could not cope with, i.e. AMaths & Physics.
it was really hard for me to handle with these and i wonder why i didnt drop the subjects last time and screwed up my life.
i took more bread than i could chew larh. and also indulged myself in putting all the blame to miss xxx but i didnt like, get motivated to find solutions and work hard by myself until the problem snowballed. (i mean, it's demoralising for me you know! maths, being one of my good subjects and all of the sudden it plummeted to the lowest valley)

and now, i've screwed up my life even further.
by entering NY.
i play but
i do my daily work (probably except maths cuz i take like, an hour or two to solve a quesiton)
i revise
i study
and i dont know why i still got BCME (GP) SSUCC
(SUCK! you see?) but it's better than the UUUCD in midyrs larh.
but i guess it wasn't enough. it really wasnt.
and i got retained.
and seriously, it sucks. especially when i'm branded as a dunmanian.
i've been feeling like a failure since sec 3 til i was numb.
but that doesn't mean that more failures wouldn't deter me.
i was hit and smacked right in the face.
i really wonder did i make the wrong decision to stay in NY after first 3 months?
i mean, there were definitely good things that happened to me:
knowing monk, jia xin, wing yan, xiu jun, julian, siu hon, tiara, anandhi, xueting, etc etc.
being elected as the CO president.
and probably the LTC that made me molt like hell and also experiences that i've learnt.
and basically, that's all.
there's really nothing valuable that i'd like to take away with me.
and there's nothing valuable that makes me wanna stay.
especially now that i've been retained.
and i am starting to wonder if JC education really suits me.
and i am starting to regret not listening to my brother and going to poly in the first place and tortured myself in NY.

exasperation? indignant? inferior? ashamed?
nothing could describe the feeling i feel deep down inside.
i sometimes cannot face gatherings with dunmanians.
i feel so inferior i dont want to mix around with people i dont feel comfortable with.
probably because i've been rather hurt by insensitive people in 0631, i'm afraid of being hurt. again. and feel further inferior. that's why i didn't attend class gathering this year.
with my entire class in RJ, HC, VJ and TJ. i dont want to be the odd one out in NY.
it's like i've always been mixing around with the best people, and i dont like feeling like i'm the worst, the black sheep in the group/class.
i'm so sick of feeling so dispensable.
like everyone could do well without me.
i'm so sick of being the last in class.
i'm tired that the one that has the most degree will win the race.
but that's how the society is like. (okay. i think i'm digressing a little here)

anyway, i've gotten over the fact that i've been retained already.
so dont go:

"are you ok?"

"are you really ok?"

"how are you feeling?"

what i really need now is advice if i should stay or leave.
but i think i've already got my answer.
nevertheless, if anyone has any advice for me, please please please tell me.
i really need it.

maybe it's time for a change

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Vivo City --- 1st December


yesterday was Vivo City's Grand Opening Ceremony!!! (:
went there shopping with monk after spending the first half of my day with xiuyi ((:
she came my house to see see look look. it's her first visit! hees. den we went Kovan's Super Bowl to pool but there were only Billiard tables there. so we went to Meridien Hotel's Monstercue, but cuz we shopped around at PS before we headed for Monstercue, we reached there past 3pm and the charge was $10.80 per hour!!! -daylight robbery-
so we went back to PS to continue or shopping instead.

I bought... a tank top from m)phosis, a necklace from Hula & Co! bwee!



alrightey. narcissism in the CK Tang's dressing room, while monk's next door changing. haha.

a stoning expression.


another pretty pretty dressing room! (: god. their dressing rooms are all big and spacious and beautifully furnished i cant bear to even leave!

see? pretty lights and pretty hangers!


TEEHEE. pretty pretty fireworks of Vivo City's Grand Opening captured by my monk:

TWIST! fireworks! (: loveit.

all i want for christmas (:

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rah. so the one little circle patch expanded and started to continue peeling and peeling and peeling in to this uneven disgusting peel!!! :

(Right Arm)


(Left Arm)

rah. now i cant wear anything but long sleeves and jackets! cuz pple might think i have like, skin cancer or some disgusting skin disease.. BLEH.
cant wait for all these torture to end!
peel banana, peel peel banana! and out comes my lovely delicious delicate new skin.
I CANT WAIT TO WHITEN TOO!

Leadership Training Camp 2006

alright. i reckon the photos wont be uploaded so soon so i'd better update about the camp first before i forget!

-Day One-
Arrived at school early in the morning with my big fat haversack, shoebag, and my 1.5L bottle.
Bedivere-Camelot gathered at the carpark, boarded the bus and set off for the Jalan Bahtera campsite.
On our way there, we played many stupid Kiam Pa games like the MRT game, the Around (somewhere) In Eighty Days game, the What Time Is It Now game, blarh blarh blarh.
Reached the campsite and we started our mass cleaning. Yuck! there were like, so many lizard poops in the birdhouses we're living in! Ugh.
After cleaning, we had some ice breakers at the Facilitator's birdhouse. And we had to make Ms Choong laugh as a forfeit! ARGH. DO YOU KNOW HOW TOUGH IS THAT?! (but we managed in the end.)

den we had lunch. and thanks to the rain. we had to run back to the birdhouse, drenched, to get our utensils. the Bedi guys were nice to go there in ONE raincoat and come back with FIVE. shao jie was clumsily pulling the raincoat over me and in the midst of it, his utensils hit my head with the "CLANG" ringing in my ears. the Bedi girls ran back to our birdhouse to take our utensils. While the 4 other girls went toilet, Sylvia (aka shortshort aka 148) and I (teehee. i'm 153!) returned with all our utensils and the Bedi guys were laughing at us, claiming that we looked like seaweeds swimming in the rain. >.<

after lunch, we went for Kayak School! learn Kayaking and had Capsize Drill. Dang. my partner has this weird phobia of water although he knows how to swim. all the way we were kayaking, he was complainin how scared he is and he doesnt wanna capsize. unfortunately, ms choong picked us as the first to do the capsize drill. we failed the first trial. during the second trial, him being afraid, caused the front of the kayak with me in it to capsize first and the impact was horrible. the kayak knocked my head with a loud bump and i was nearly knocked out. when i surfaced the water, i realised my hairband broke into 2 and i was in pain! but we still completed the capsize drill and the rest of kayak school. we heeded mr. ong's advice and swopped places. with me at the back and him in front. we definitely work better this way. (ha. this implies that i'm the stronger one amongst the 2 of us. and true enough. i could easily change the direction of OUR kayak with my own single effort. sometimes, i feel that when i'm now kayaking, we're not moving at all larh. haiyo. guys nowadays...... so disappointing!)

and during the night, was Leadership Training and debriefing (:

-Day Two-
it was a rough night. what with the lights and all the whispers and little commotions here and there, plus the hard wooden planks.. i couldn't really sleep well. i woke up no less than 10 times the entire night. boos. :(((
6a.m: Assemble at Parade Area, PT
630a.m: Flag Raising den breakfast
7a.m: Kayak Shack, get ready to launch off.
8a.m - 1p.m: Kayak to Kranji Lake
this is the highlight of the day! we kayaked and kayaked and kayaked all the way, resting in between when any of the camelots capsized, whilst keepin our diamond formation. on our way, we cheered, we sang, we motivated each other to push on, to hang on.when we finally reached our destination, we were already behind schedule. and we were all tired and exhausted---physically and mentally. so we headed back towards our campsite. thoroughly fatigued. i really had to mentally tell myself to move on, to hang on, to press on, to persevere.rah.
had a shock when one of the leaders shouted "come on camelot! FIVE MORE K TO GO!" i was like "what?! FIVE?! so we paddled like what, 10km?!" -total craziness-
when we were back, we were really dead beat. and still had to drift along the shore, waiting to keep the kayak.
we paddle together. we cheer together. we capsize together. we pee in the sea together. we sunburn together. it was a really unforgettable experience.

after lunch and washing up, was our Belay School activity. learning how to belay and the commands and tada! night time! rest time! bathing time! sleep time!

-Day Three-
6am: PT & Flag Raising & Mass Gathering
7am: Breakfast
8am: Abseiling (bwee! i just love abseiling mann! love love love love love!)
9am: Hanging Logs
10am: Logs and Tires (oh mann. this was super scary. and my sweaty palms plus sunblock didnt help but deterred me by making me slip! rah! scared scared scared scared scared! but still, i completed it! yay.)
11am: mass gathering
12nn: lunch! pack up! wash up! bathing was horrible. cuz we were all burnt! Bedi girls were all moanin and screamin when our warm and fragile skin touched the cold strong water current. rahhh.
after lunch, we had to drink up seven 1.5L bottles of water as a group, den divide into pairs, one is given the map and direct the other one to draw. after which, we grab our stuffs and set off. although poor Bedi was the last to leave the campsite, when we reached the bus stop, the other 3 teams were still there! haha. we took 975 to bukit panjang plaza and the entire Bedi couldnt take it anymore and we chionged to the toilet, ignoring our clue & password : F&B and The White Basket. we "wu da wu zhuang" went to the toilet and tadaH! Mos Burger was RIGHT BESIDE THE TOILET & guess what?! white basket? mos burger? got the link?!! haha.

after we got our second clue, we chionged to the interchange and took 176 to West Coast. nice and sweet Jun Kai facil bought us moisturizer and we were busy applying it on the bus. :))) heh hehs. we were asked to go through all the obstacles at the playground, and then dig the sand for our last clue that'll lead us to our final pit stop. lucky Bedi again got lucky & within a minute, we found our clue! you wanna know how lucky we are? one hour later when we reached our pit stop & finished pitching our tents, the last group was still digging!

we den started fire at the BBQ pits, cooked maggie noodles in the mess tins and ate and shared. totallaye exchange saliva experience. hahaha. after dinner, we went for night quest!
we had to go in pairs & i was again, with my kayak partner. my disability was one arm disabled while his is blindness. and together, we had to go through the obstacles with all our disabilities. haha. it was really fun but i wished it could be more exciting.
that night, we were all really really tired. no commotions, no whispers, no nothing could stop us from our sleep and i really fell asleep the moment my head hit my haversack. zzzZ

-Day Four-
wake up. collapse tent. area clean up. pack up. mass debrief. take bus. back to camp site.
have lunch. clean up. debrief. prepare to set off for NY!
mass debrief and sharing session. dinner. rehearsal. den it's Finale Night!
we have a series of skit performances in the LT and then it's Knight presentation, Principal's Speech and the Finale night ended.
But we went on with a tribal in the parade square and celebrated Ms Lee's birthday! (: den it's picture time! lalalalala (:

finale night then marks the end of the entire leadership camp experience.
I'll never forget all the fun we had, all the pains we shared. the chao ta char siew limbs, the "HUN" cheers, the singing, the sun, the rain, the fun, the pain.

stupid potatoes.

i'm SO freaking irritated right now.
in the midst of watching "Tian Wai Fei Xian", my mum called "Ah Girl ah! Come and help me!"
and so, i obligingly paused the show and went to the kitchen to help her.

First, she asked me to tend the potato slices sizzling away in the pan. So i said, "huh! my skin now so sensitive! later the oil spurt unto my arms den i die how?" so she asked me to skin the potato. I did. In the midst of it, she said "cut more potatoes! i'm finishing with this batch!" so i started slicing the potato and when i'm almost finished, she snatched the knife away, annoyed, and finished my potato. So, I started skinning the potato. And when i'm almost finishing again, she snatched my potato away and knife away and started skinning it skilfully and asked me to tend to the sizzling potatoes, annoyed. When i switched over to the pan, one of the many slices of potatoes was already burnt! i hurriedly flipped it over, and she was already done with the skinning, she shoved me away and say, "haiyo. chao ta already la! like that how you cook next time?! go away go away! dont need your help!"

RAH. annoyed.